so the ER doc offered me vicodin

[bettie1976]

I wasnt expecting that at ALL. They know my history apparently he didnt read my chart. It was sooo freakin hard to turn down! oh my god! Im going back and forth in my mind kicking myself cuz I didnt take the rx but called my sponsor and we had a good talk. WTF? this weeks been F'n with me BAD. I ALMOST said ok to the script but then I told him no, Im in recovery. Man this is hard.

[bettie1976]

hahah how cute!

[lunachick]

no nothing is working! arrrrrrggg. I just took some tylonal and am going in the bath..

P.S. My baby loves the studded bracelet you sent. She never lets go of it. I'm taking a pic!

[bettie1976]

yer poor tooth! that ambesols not workin huh?

[bettie1976]

if i hadnt spoke up last night i would be high right now. im so very thankful that i actually did something right for a change.

[lunachick]

but the important part is that you DID NOT CAVE! I'm pretty close myself. My freaking tooth is still killing me, and I've been taking antibiotics for three days now and it still feels like my mouth is being ripped out. I'm so close to taking all my pills for the day at once just to get some relief. It's so hard..:(

[bettie1976]

i wasnt so strong yesterday.....i almost caved...right there in front of my bf and daughter..

[lunachick]

You are so strong and brave!!!

[bettie1976]

i just made myself go to sleep so i wouldnt think about it. its a new day today and all thats done. now i can get back to my meeting tonight and back to life. thanks you guys. means a lot.

[marcatj]

must be in the air... everyone I've talked to this week it seems like they have been craving.

it's so weird, some weeks can go and you feel like wonder woman, then all of the sudden you feel like a beast who wants to eat a whole handful...  not wants, HAS to...til it passes.  it's weird...

[VOsRose]

It sucks that the doc offered you vicodin but it's GREAT that you told him you were in recovery.  Good for you!  I'm sorry this week has been so hard.  I've had a few cravings myself this week.  Stay strong, girl.  I'm so proud of you!

xoxoxo
Rosie

[slideshow]

Yahhhh, but it's so cool that you are not a normie........NOT at all....Yes it hurts but it could feel better cuz you are not a normie....Good work mam.......Bettie1976 for President......Yay.    

[bettie1976]

i know. it hurts so bad i just wanna cry right now. i hate feeling this way, wanting, craving, etc. i wish i were a normie. gaw-dammmm i do...

[marcatj]

it IS hard.  it is so, so f***ing hard.... :-/