I leave tomorrow for my planned detox vacation. I have 30 days to shake this addiction that has stuck around for the last two years, I detoxed briefly last weekend on saturday didnt shoot any oxycodone 30mg that afternoon and by 8pm the pounding head and body ache began. I started to feel some slight nausea but by 10pm I had to throw up I have only tried to stop one other time before roughly 6 months ago and I made it to like 12 days or something and gave in, On saturday I was sick from taking to many so thats why I just said what the heck why not just see what happens. Well I soon remembered the horrible feeling associated with detox. The worst for me is the vomiting, it is so intense and un stopable, followed by intense sweating and fever. I took 2mg of xanax at 3am after I couldnt fall asleep I was just feeling absolutely horrible. To my suprise the next morning I awoke feeling not as bad as I would have thought I guess, but still had and jumped right back on them. That was a fun experiment. not..
Basicly I know what is what, I have all the amino acids,multi v's and protein lined up. I will be out in the country at a lake house with my grandma and there will be no way around detoxing period. I feel if i can stay clean up there for that long it will give me a good chance to stick to it when I come back home in August.
To the main Title: & question I am wondering if anyone has some ideas on what may help the nausea . I know it is more then likely good for my body to throw up all that ****, It is by far the worst tasting vomit as well hah, its like a million xanax melting on your tongue in my mind atleast.
I am scared but really looking forward to this trip I was thinking I would be dead before I made it up there. Wish me luck folks as I have enough blues to get me threw the plane ride and a sleep over at my cousins and a two hour ride to the lake where after that I will be at the mercy of myself.
It is so beautiful and peaceful google; Rushford Lake,NY in the town of Rushford or Canadea. So I am thinking I will be able to manage better up there then down here knowing a phone call can fix it. I am praying my mind can take this abuse and still do me a favor and come back to life on its own when I stop. Im not happy with my happy pills anymore this has gone on for to long I want off,out anything but what I am doing right now :(
-Nick