I'm on hour 28 detoxing of opana

[PhatTailDeuce]

Im In hell right now and need some support. My skin is on fire, I can't sit still, I'm nauseous. I don't have anything I the house, so that's good. I just need help getting through the next 2 days. God help me.

[PhatTailDeuce]

That is the exact reason we are all here. To offer just those few words that may help someone get through a challenging moment. I'm sure the cravings will subside. They did for me the 2nd time I detoxed. It just takes some time. Exercise really helped with that. I know if you are not ready that sounds obsurd. But if and when you are, exercise will begin to help fill your brains receptors with the endorphins that the drugs we're previously providing. You will again return to your "naturally high" state and that feeling is indescribable. It's truly like being born again, not in a religious sense, but in a physical sense. Your energy level will increase, your attitude will improve...you will once again enjoy your life. Stay the course. The rewards are awaiting you. God bless.

[Kell2184]

Your post is liberating you have a lot of strength. Congrats on 77 hours clean though you should be proud that you have made it this far! Keep the faith and thank you for your words it helped me through my cravings.

[PhatTailDeuce]

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Story (condensed version): back surgery in December 2002. Completely addicted to oxy. Went into rapid detox in December 2003. Filled a scrip as soon as I got out. Lost job 4 months later. Got a new job 1 month later and went back to the same rapid detox to be ready to start new job. Replaced pills with booze and spent first 3 months on new job in drunken stupor but somehow managed to get through. In a miracle I found AA. I stopped drinking and things changed almost immediately. A few false starts, but got sober 11/11/07. NO PILLS for almost 8 years. In February 2011 I had a kidney stone. Went to hospital and they hit me with morphine for the pain. Sent me home with a scrip for 12 Norco. That was the beginning of the end for an addict. 8 years without a pill and it took 12 Norco to kick start the old ways. With the back history it was easy to hit the pain clinic. In no time I was up to 4 Norco 10/325 a day...snorting. Went through all kinds of dr. Shopping to make sure I had enough. Tolerance went up quickly. Soon I went to the web and spent thousands over the next few months on Oxy, opana, Norco, percs, and finally settled on my #1 choice, roxy 30mg. After this past thanksgiving I knew I had to stop. Admitted my issues to a few close loved ones and checked into a 5 day detox. They weaned me down on methodone and sent me home. Clearly I was not ready. I was so squirrelly after the first 5 days I ate 10 Ativan on a Friday then on Saturday i went on a mission to score. But I had no street connections. So I did what I once did best....I drank myself into a coma. I blew 4 solid years of booze free sobriety in one night. I scared the hell out of my son & best friend cause I didn't answer my phone for 2days. They finally called 911 and the paramedics showed up. I wound up in the hospital for a day. Came home and went through the worst 6 days of my life. I think I added to the misery with the Ativan. It was the wort possible detox you could imagine. I seriously thought I was not going to live. After day 7 I could actually get out of the house. I went over to my ex's house just to get out. She had taken the last of my opana before I had gone into the rehab. Well, when I got there I happened to spot the opana(she hadn't flushed it). I took 8 5mg tabs out of the bottle thinking it would get me "over the last hump". This is the addict talking. Please take note if you are ever in this situation. If someone takes your meds PLEASE make sure they flush them. I went back the next day and took the rest of the opana in addition to some hydro that was in the house. I went through that very quickly. From there it was the logical next step to go back to the pain clinic and re-up my scrip for opana 5mg. Note 2: if you go into rehab and are serious about quitting, you HAVE to notify ALL of your doctors that you can not get any more scripts. I went through the 60 opana ER in 10 days, snorting. That ended at 8AM Saturday. So right now I am 77 hours into CT off of 25mg-30mg of opana per day, snorted. Note 3: DO NOT be fooled by what sounds like a low dose. I know people on here have CT'd off WAY more than this dose. However, I can assure you, the WD's are no less severe and the mental anguish is just as horrible as before when I came off very high doses of oxy 8 years ago. You never forget that, but somehow the pull of addiction is so strong, we do it in spite of ourselves. I am on the very edge right now as I write this. I just got an e-mail from the source I was using. I could have whatever I want at my doorstep tomorrow. I am NOT going to do it. I deleted the e-mail. I DO NOT have another recovery in me. If I use again I WILL die. PLEASE, PLEASE if you are reading this make the decision NOW to stop. Life as an actively using addict is not a life. It is death waiting to happen. The stories of strength, hope and courage posted here have helped me through these first 77 hours. I am not going to give up now. I only hope that my post can help the next person. God bless you all and please, as you hit your knees tonight, send up a prayer for all those still suffering.

[theaddict]

first of all, welcome to the forums and glad you found us here. we're all always here to help, no matter what. we have all been through the same thing you're currently going through - and some of us are even still going through the same thing as well.

be proud that you've made it to 28 hours without a pill. that was a HUGE milestone for me when i hit 12 hours, even.

the best piece of advice that i can give you, because i have been right where you are, is to drink a lot of fluids. water, gatorade, but try your hardest to stay away from orange juice. the acidity of the orange juice may just as well upset your stomach. and for those of us addicts who know the withdraw stages, we know our stomachs are upset....a lot!

keep your mind occupied. try to do something to take your mind off of what's going on with your mind. but also, try and keep in mind that what you're going through right now is your body reacting to not having the pills/chemicals it's depended on for such a long time. this is completely normal, and nothing bad is going to happen to you. when i first started to go through what you're going through, i swore up and down that i was going to die. nobody has died from getting off the pills. in fact, it's bee just the opposite. people get their lives back.

do you mind if i ask what medication you were on, how much, how often....let us know a little about your story. you would be surprised how much posting and getting it all helps your mind ease through this time.

always here for you, if you need anyone.
xoxoxoxo

[Bkitty]

Oh and try to drink clear liquids for the nausea,,,gatorade,,H2O,,broth and sometimes starchy foods can help settle the tummy.(crackers) Take Imodium for the bathroom issuses if you need too. Sometimes regular coke can settle the tummy too

[Bkitty]

Hi and welcome! im so sorry you feel like sh*t now. Your in the worst of it now and it will start getting better. It really does. Magnesium really really helped me with the creepy crawlies and restlessness. The last thing I wanted to do was move around but it does help some. Take cool baths when feeling hot and hot baths when feeling cold. Take as many as you need to. Wear loose fitting cotton clothes. Try try and distract yourself somehow,,whether watching a movie or a show. I would play games on the computer,,DVR all my shows and cuddle up in bed. You have to take back control of this addiction and do whatever you need to to do so. I know you cant control the withdrawals now but they will pass,,,I promise. Hang in there~Bkitty