need help with mental addiction

[crazzy_man]

i am almost done with WD but so strongly feall the earg to take some oxy just to get rid of some of the pain or so i can finally feall relaxed whats the best way to get this off my mind i dont want to relapes but i want to feall good for a little while ppplleaas help any ideas can help thank u

[lovelexy]

i just posted on your other thread. i didn't realize you had 2 going. go read that, but most importantly, don't ever take benzos since you told me you have seizures. you can have serious seizures when withdrawing. also, i had no idea you may have lupus. it is extremely rare in males and when in females, rare before age 15. but that is what i have and you asked me about other pain options. if you truely have lupus or even another autoimmune disease, than there are SPECIFIC drugs you should be prescribed and not mask the pain with painkillers. lupus and fibro is exactly why i was prescribed oxycontin and (although no one seems to believe it) i never got addicted and chose to taper off and now i am in hell too and can't seem to get any advice but anyway..the point is i was able to go off them becuase i am now on lupus drugs, and not just the neurontin i mentioned. i am on strong immunosuppressives. if you have central nervous system lupus involvemmnt that would explain the seizures. you NEED you MUST find a rheumatologist. that much you can tell your parents about. you need to get formally diagnosed with whatever your disease is. ONLY then can you get proper treatment. that is why you feel so hopeless right now and that narcotics are the only answer. you don't have a treatment plan for your specific disease! please, while you are waiting, soldier on through the disease pain and the pain of withdrawals. also- narcotics have REBOUND pain so they very well may have made your pain worse than it really will be once you are completely off!  they did to me.
hugs

[crazzy_man]

i have not been buying the oxy it has been perscibed to mee i just got way to out of hand with it i am gonna ask a friend if they would mind taking me to the meatings he should be cool with it thanks for all your help

[hopsing94]

Sorry if I sounded so rough. Young man you are 13 and you are taking a dangerous drug. You have done the right thing to quit but you need help. You really need to get to a doctor if your in pain. This is really scary. This is serious stuff your taking and whoever is selling it to you should be shot. To help with the w/d's take a hot bath it will make you feel better,tell your parents you are in pain so they can get you to a doctor. Please please please do not take anymore of this evil drug. Please seek out some help. Please keep us posted. ~~John

[Junkie]

Do you know of anyone who could possibly take you? How about treatment centers in your area? If you can find one, call them and ask them if there are any centers or groups in your area. You can remain anonymous while calling.

If you exhaust everything in your area, go to your doctor without your parents there. Talk to him, and tell him or her you do not want your parents to know. (If that is your choice not to tell them, we don't know what your home situation is, so we can't judge you, and we won't)

Peace : )

[Junkie]

Yeah I hear ya. 13....wow. But these days it's easy for kid's to get anything. Pretty sad. Plus, this kid has some serious physical ailments, so it obvious he needs something for the debilitating pain. I think he needs to go to his Doc now, and get some help before he ends up like....well....one of us.

[GoingToMakeIt]

You should have access to counselors at school. It might be hard to get away to a NA mtg without your parents knowing, huh? If you can though it would also be a good idea. Good luck with things. Keep posting. There is a bunch of help here for you. And yes, you are way too young to be on this road. Please do whatever it takes to get off of the downward spiral.

[hopsing94]

ok i'm not sure i'm reading this right but did he say he was 13 years old. Who the hell is selling this kid oxy's. This is messed up. If you have health problems you need to be at the doctor!!!!

[crazzy_man]

i couldent find anything close ther all 30 45 minuts away ao im guss those are out of the qustion

[crazzy_man]

i couldent find anything close ther all 30 45 minuts away ao im guss those are out of the qustion

[crazzy_man]

thank u so much i am cheeking right now :)

[Junkie]

Anyone can go to NA. And nothing can stop you from going to a meeting. Look them up online in your area, or, contact a local treatment center and ask them if they know of any NA groups in your area. Age doesn't matter when you are talking about addiction. You can be 100% anonymous at NA meetings.

You are obviously very strong for 13. And you know what? You are still growing, and this drug will screw you up for life. But I am glad you are here, on this forum, reaching out for help. But seriously, calla round, look online. Maybe they have a teen NA around your area.

We are here for ya. : )

Peace

[Junkie]

13.....wow. You need some help now. You are way too young to be doing this garbage. I totally understand the fibro and lupus, and you should have a safe amount directed by a Doc to take.

Go talk to your regular Doc, weather that be an Oncologist or whatever specialist you see, and tell them whats going on. While the other issues are a *****, you don't want to be hooked. Not this young. If you can't talk to your parents, go talk to your doctor.

Keep us updated, and be careful of this detox you are doing. With the lupus, you could be doing yourself more harm than good.

GO SEE YOUR DOC! And, if possible, try to talk to your parents. They have already been through the fibro and lupus, so you never know, they just might be pretty cool about it....and most of all, they need to know whats going on. You could seriously hurt yourself.

Peace  : )

[crazzy_man]

i cant take xanx or any sort of benzo im too into the buzz but thanks i hope u can pull threw that addiction i think xanx withdrwas wer worst than oxy stay strong

[Junkie]

Yeah I forgot to mention that. Xanax is good for the first 4-5 days of w/d's, but I do not recommend them for regular usage. I am addicted to Xanax now becase of my last detox, and my addictive personality took over, and WALA.....here I am.

SO, yeah, Xanax and Ambien are good for that first week, taken in moderation and only when absolutely needed...but anything else and you are just using them as a crutch.

[crazzy_man]

thank u            first of all the part i left out is that i am 13 my parents have no clue about the addiction i have the drugs do to somthing simaller to fibro mialga and lupus of the central nervus syetem so i dont no what to take for those pains also i think NA would be extrmle helpfull but i dont no how to do it without my parents noing and i cant let them no they will make thing worse

[IBKleen]

Xanax? Please be careful with any type of benzo, they are addictive. You don't want to trade one addiction for another.

Hang in there.

[crazzy_man]

well ive been tarperin down for a week it was a huge drop from 40mg oxy and today i am on10 so the withdraws have been horible but know fighting the meatl part seems to be the biggest battle thank u for the advise i just got myslef some chocolate a a nice book

[IBKleen]

I think the best way to handle the mental cravings is time. In the meantime, surround yourself with people who are not addicts, or who are recovering. Counseling is a great idea and if you think it is for you, NA meetings.

But yes, read a book..get a hobby..exercise....stay way from old friends and places....

You will have to do some hard work to STAY clean hun. Keep posting!!!

[Junkie]

Stay busy. Do something that you have been wanting to do for a long time. The second you take that pill, you are just opening up the old chapter of abuse.

"Just one and it will help the pain go away" I have said that many times while detoxing, and it only landed me back on the addiction.

It takes 4-5 days to get over the pain, and 10 to feel good again. But then you need therapy or NA to help you fight the urges to do it again.

Xanax works great for the anxiety of wd, and a sleeping pill for the sleeplessness if you are having a problem with that. Also, hot baths, lots of liquids to flush the system.

You can do this. Just throw away all of your junk, get rid of it. That way you don't have that drug calling you from the drawer it's hiding in.

Alot of us have been where you are at now. And I promise it gets better every day.

Peace

[GoingToMakeIt]

Read a good book. Go for a walk. Eat some chocolate.
When did you quit?