strange question - ringing in ears???

[udoschoices]

so i had to ask other members here... one of the symptoms of my abuse i noticed in the last year is a constant ringing in my ears i attribute to the hydrocodone - does anyone else have this problem? i was snorting hydro as welll as chewing them and my feeling is that it got in my nasal / ENT passages and damaged the small fibers around my ears. I read up on this on the internet and found out it supposedly it is a side effect of prolonged high doses of hydrocodone... they said Rush Limbaugh had to get ear implants or something that many people attributed to his abuse of painkillers in the past.  I notice a constant background ringing. One more reason to stay clean as i dont want to lose my hearing since i love music so much...  anybody else notice this???  does it go back to normal if so, or did i damage it permanently?

day 8... dealing with mental cravings that are driving me crazy. need to schedule or stay active next 2 days so my mind doesnt wander

[dominosarah]

Alcohol is the devil in a bottle.  Sorry to hear the night didnt go so good but am glad you came to the realization that drinking isnt good for you either.  Hope you 2 are talking it out today.  Go out for a walk or something together.  You are in control of you now, not your addiction~~~sara

[udoschoices]

thanks sara - i assumed the ringing was from the pill abuse. I can deal with it, just another reason to stay clean.  Yes, LoveJ - i hear you! the "being bored" part is the worst, as my mind races and thinks of how easy it would be to get a few pills to pass the time/ watch football / etc..  but i think this is just the start of the mental mind games. Its way harder for me than the physical. Keeping myself focused on things to do, not letting the little voices "win".  We can do it!!!

i actually went out to dinner last night with gf and drank some - split a bottle of wine and then we had some other drinks. In the end, we had some stupid argument largely due to being a bit drunk and made me realize that i cant separate the alcohol from the drugs. Easy trap to fall into, thinking "oh, alcohol was never my problem" then doing THAT to excess. Both me and my gf were unhappy how the night ended, and largely due to the alchohol.  It's going to be hard for me to accept that i cant drink either - even if i think i'm a social drinkner - but as i've heard from people here, that will eventually lead to my DOC. which i dont want. Plus, i get along with her so well normally, it just wasnt "us" last night which i attribute to the drinking.

[dominosarah]

I used to get vertigo real bad when i was using.  Knock on wood i havent had that since i cleaned up.  I do have ringing in my ears and mine is from the pill abuse.  It is something i have to live with.  It has gotten better but still an annoyance.  Just keep adding up those clean days.  Ringing in the ears is way better than using.        sara

[loveJwhite]

I am having a time with cravings too...the thought is in my head that all I have to do is drive on over to my mom's house (I've mentioned she is terminally ill) and her entire house is a pharmacy right now....another reason I haven't visited this past week. Just keep it in check man, I know you've said you usually don't make too far due to the mental anguish....I'm a major wuss and I'm fighting the hardest I've ever fought. You can too! I feel so bored, like I don't know what to do with myself, even when I am doing something, I can't quite focus on it and move onto something else-so nothing is getting done....sorry for the rant, just want you to know I UNDERSTAND. Keep it up!

[Icntkickit]

It's also a sign of high blood pressure!! Congrats on the descion to quit. Good luck