Still unsure what to do.

[Arrrg]

I previously posted that I was looking for some help, i am going on day 3 with no sleep and a mix of crying (seem to be worse now because of the lack of sleep).  I was taking 7 per day of 10/325 norco and asked my doctor to help me get off the drugs.  He prescribed suboxone which i was tapering down with.  Things seemed to go well.  I have since stopped taking the suboxone but the symptoms are the same.  The reason I was taking them was to help with arthritis, multiple bluging disks and other neck problems from a severe accident.

They seem to be worse at night when I can't distract myself.  I am on vacation with no chance of getting any suboxone.  I have been crying constantly, the symptoms are severe anxiety, shakes, throwing up, feeling completely manic for periods of time and even suicidal thoughts (something im not accustomed to)  I am a happy well adjusted in a normal day.

Please please please give my any single advice how I can handle this.  It can be anything from jump off a bridge, taking a walk, other drugs OTC that i can get at 1am.  I have many xanix which slow me down and make me feel less crazy but I still dread every moment.  It has been approximately 9 days since my suboxone sessation.  I have been smoking weed(i hate this) when i can cause it completely prevents me from focusing on anything.  I have no way to handle it right now and just need some advice..

Please tell me how to get past this, the feelings are constant and havent let up and i feel on the verge of a complete breakdown.. anything.. i mean anything..

please help

[howie77]

I would say take the xanax, just enough to sleep. I know when I go through w/d I take klonopin (also a benzo) just to get some sleep. I never take it for more than 3 days in a row, but its amazing what a little bit of quality sleep will do for your psyche durring this time. Try some of the aminos listed here as well. they are awesome.
Best of luck to you and stay strong. read some success stories on here and keep posting. Will be praying for you,
God bless,
~ Howie

[Arrrg]

Back to the day, why is it I can feel so much better during the day.  I was speaking to a friend and said he just always needed to be next to someone.  I feel the same just being around someone who is talking seems to help.  I am not sure why but that has been my way to deal with it.

[merrymaria]

hi..my name is maria..please give yourself time.  the no sleep was the worst part for me too.  you have to give yourself time for this xxxx to get out of your system.  i never thought i would feel normal but it does come and it s so good to be pill free.  you can do it...just hang in there with all your strength.  every day with out pills is good and you should see the light very soon.  good luck to you..take care maria

[sdleo]

I just went to my doctor yesterday and he asked me was I feeling any of those symptoms that you described and he said if I did that I should go to the ER immediately because they can give you meds via IV that when calm you down better than the oral meds and give you meds to help with the w/d symptoms so you can go home and sleep. I don't know if that is an option for you but it scares me that you are having homicidal ideations. Please get some help it looks like you can't do this by yourself and that is ok. It also shows great stregnth that you are not taking your wife's meds. Good luck and keep posting!

[hobbity]

There has to be something in particular about the lortabs that makes one want to rip something apart.  I never felt this post rage either with opiates.  I think it's just this nasty drug in particular. Cause I never got panic attacks before.

Try some chamomille tea and wrap up in a huge fleece blanket. Use a heating pad.  Try to just  get in a ball and if possible just control your breathing.  I did that after a panic attack and I actually fell asleep.  I  also forced myself to walk up and down the street.

[Arrrg]

THank you, I don't know when it will stop but this is day 8 or 9 and I don't think I can make it. I know where and have access to the norco.  I am staying with family and some know some dont.  I have to try to keep myself calm.  Its not working well.  I get feelings that I want to destroy everything around me.  The worst part is my wife has a bunch of pills.  I won't betray her and take them but.. When i said manic i literally want to punch out windows and do completely idiotic things.  I am doing my best to keep calm but i want to take the rest of the zanex in my pocket which will pause it.

I have come down from other drugs and never felt like this.   Maybe im loosing it.  

[Kova]

hey there!  try to stay calm.  do some deep breathing.  or, if it helps you more to keep yourself constantly busy with a task, then do that if you can.  i know what it is like to get intensely emotional from WDs, you think you are going crazy.  you have to hang in there and be strong.  just try to keep in mind WHY you are feeling that way, and that it WILL PASS.  

sending you love and prayers,
Kova

[hobbity]

Well I am in the same situation without the sub though. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions with a mini relapse of 2 pills in the middle of it. Back on track again but I think you just are going to have to realize that this is hard and tough it out. If you have no access to meds you can't relapse.  Once you are clean off the meds you don't have to withdraw from anything else  it's done.  It's like hurricane though you have to deal with the aftermath and that's the crying jags, the cravings, the fatigue, the lack of focus.

I think having the restless legs and not sleeping is hard.  I had 2-3  days on this trip down road of not sleeping due to the wanting to jump out of my skin feeling.

I finally got past that and now I want to sleep all the time.  I think it gets better daily and I have heard that people have gone thru a bunch of days and then have a bad day but each day is supposed to be one more day away and better.

My first withdrawl from drugs was the pits.  I was coming off some bad stuff worse than these pills.  Not a pill form I was withdrawing from.  Anyway I felt bad for 2 weeks in sheer withdrawl  then I had about 2 weeks of draggy.  But that was a huge amount of drugs I was coming down from.  So this time out it's less intense but not fun.

If you can hang in or maybe check into a detox facility.  I don't have the answers but I understand I really do.  for me I will get back on and go go go go and I am doing the inpt rehab route as of this coming week.