today is day 5 no methadone

Well day 5 is finally here I will be glad with 2 years get here tho lol!! But I just keep telling myself what doesnt break me will make me stronger. I got about 4 hours of sleep last night which really sucked. And as far as the physical pain goes the small of my back hurts. As for the energy yeah I have felt the energy crash start but I can deal with that if I could just get some rest. I have tried to take naps thru out the day that way I could get a few hours of sleep and it just aint happening. I do feel like this is starting to take a toll on him b/c all of the house work has feel on him. But this was the first morning I was actually able to get up and take him to work without to many problems. In fact this morning on the way back home my almost 11 year old son looked at me and said Mom I wished you would have never took that stuff<-------Now if that isnt motivation I dont know what else is. He then turned and looked at me and said Mom I wished they had a helpadone lol that way you would feel better then I had to go thru the process of explaining that it would be Methadone lol. Some times he just makes me feel so much better. I have not hid anythin from him since I got custody back I want him to see as much of this I am going thru so that hopefully one day he will not make the same choices.

[sudie58]

well done on your day 5! your son must be a huge motivation for you to get clean, bless him,have you any aftercare to help you and help you stay clean, stay strong, god bless

[t_nuh_had_nuf]

Congrats on day 5. 2 yrs can't come soon enough for me either. It's cool you can tell your son. My husband knows and is very supportive. I told my the kids I had the flu and now they think the doctor is trying to regulate my thyroid so thats why My energy level -moods are fluctuating(never ever had a thyroid problem, watch me get one now for lying about it.)My kids best friends dad died of overdose 1 month ago and I really didn't want to scare them. Stay Strong...TEENA