3 back surgeries started this ****,,last one 2003,,spinal fusion,,feel pretty good now,,I guess,,I have been on drugs for so long??I really don't know how much I hurt,,if I hurt at all,,I love the buzzzz,,well quickly,,here it is,,after the back surgery I really felt good and the pain pills gave me so much energy,,anyways I built my house on that **** and 3 years later I am still dependent,,well 4 days strong now without,,but can be weak!!!well I noticed I could do so much when I took them and I thought my attitude was better but,,come to think of it,,I think its all in my head!!! well I am trying to quit this **** cold turkey,,,, and then start an exercise routine to see if that can jumpstart me,,I used to love working out but since this addiction ,,that went away,,there really is'nt anything good about these pills,,maybe we all should try to get high on life,,they say exercise release's endorphines,,maybe this will make me HIGH because I really need that HIGH.....anyways struggling in NE....by the way....GO PATS!!!!day 4