What to do with these emotions

[quietllythinking]

I am 5 days off of vicodin and I want some badly. I have been dealing with some pretty tough things emotionally and I know I was using the vics to cover those up. I miss the feeling of not caring. Its hard for  me to "feel" again. I guess I probably need to seek some counseling or outside help. If not I feel like I am going to relapse. I know I can get more from the dr, but I also know that will end soon. I don't know what to do with these feelings. Help

[Brrrrad]

Hey Man, What helped me ALOT was telling my wife my whole problem,then we called the pharmacy and canceld the remaining scripts. It helped put the voice of temptation farther back in my mind. By confiding in my wife she helped keep me accountable and by stopping the scripts it closed the door on getting more.
I did it when i quickly cuz i did`nt want to cave to my crave cuz it was strong. Don`t wait do all you can to help yourself and keep posting here, these peeps are awesome and will help with anything. If you need anything..............Brrrrad

[quietllythinking]

Thanks for your words of advice. I am dressed to go for a run as we speak. I just hope it doesnt aggravate my back pain. I really miss running, but since I got hooked on the pills I just wasnt motivated to try again. I was clear headed enough yesterday to read an entire book. That hasnt happened in awhile. I think I will make an appointment for some counseling. Im lucky enought to have insurance. I'm not sure I have the guts yet to stand up in front of a bunch of people and admit I'm an addict, even though clearly I am. I did tell my dr. last week that I didnt think I wanted to take the vicodin anymore, but I didnt tell her why. I should have. I will. Just wanted to say thanks :)

[gnarly_1]

HI......the best place for you now would be a N/A meeting......these feeling have to get delt with or relapse is probable .......at a meeting you canm share how your feeling with others that have been there it will do you good to get around some clean people as for something you can do right now...paint an ugly picture of just how bab it was living in active addiction
when you think of using go there...the thing to remember is your not responsible for the though but you are responsible for the action....try to get your mind off the pills get lost in some music watch a movie exercise go out for a run or a walk anything to keep you from obsessing on the pills....you also need to come clean with your doctor and tell him you have a problem with the pills so he no longer prescribes them for you....you must cut all tyes to the pills for this to work you cant be sitting here thinking I will get a refill on monday...you did the right thing posting we all want to see you succeed good luck and God bless......Gnarly