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[trappedInn]

Thanks you guys for the supports its amazing the similarities people go through.  I gues I should feel lucky that I was some how able to see what was happening to me. I believe I must help myself first and deal with the consequences later.  COKE IS EVIL! I think I saw the light when I started to think of my Grandpa (deceased) something inside me a voice asking me...." what would grampa think of me now?"  I broke down and cried myself to sleep.  the next morn. I looked at myself and saw red puffy eyes and a person i did"nt recognize.  I"m gonna take my life back.  I have alot of bridges i burned, lost friends and family.  I now see my girlfriend was really NO friend at all ...she just wanted a partner in crime.  IT'S TIME TO GROW UP ...AGAIN.
Thanks for the advice and support.  I will keep you all posted on this roller coaster ride i will be taking to get ME back. But at least i want to take the ride. thanks

[trappedInn]

Im back...went to rehab and now want my life back. how do i make  amends to my family and friends....especially how do I talk to my best friend that i lied about, hurt, neglected, humiliated, hit and was a monster too.  I miss him and realize that he was a true friend and i destroyed it.....help with some advice.

[Dieing2Live]

well you've made the biggest step and sounds like you truly want this. just keep your eye on the prize. take each day as it comes

[toxictome]

Glad to hear you want to get your life ..it's up to you to do the footwork. We'll be here to support you in any way we can!! GOOD LUCK!

[CR_ST_NA]

so proud of you for relizing you are better and more valuable than the life you were living. get rid of the girlfried, keep posting, make new clean friends and find a good church one where you won't be judged and people can get around you with love and prayer. just some suggestions. god bless.... christina