i have been on methadone since 2/2008, before that i was up to 6-8 80mg oxycontins aday.. have been on some sort of pain meds since 2001 when i broke my back..so the methadone started out as a diff pain med, & i went up to 100mgs aday, i have SLOWLY been coming down, now at 17mg... but the pain is so bad i want to go back up, but i really want off.. im already having the restlessness, irritability, and i feel evry little thing 100xs more.. my docs want to do a new surgery that will relieve me of any pain, but i have to b off the methadone 1st... any suggestions with dealing with the pain & other symptoms.. i try to keep myself busy, do yoga, & i have 2 kids so its not like i can just take sleeping pills & wait it out.. my biggest fear is i will have to go back up & never get off ..... help please...