Day 6 today free from vic

[virgo1969]

Well I made it to day 6 pretty smoothly but today my anxiety is through the roof. I cannot concentrate on my work (doing payroll) and I just feel blah. I took my vitamins today and even ate something (for a change). It doesn't help that we rescued a young female pit bull from the streets a few days ago and we have been trying like crazy to find it's owner. Posting signs, going to shelters etc. and that has kept me my mind off of my own problems until the apt. owner decided he wants to write us up for having a pet which is not allowed. He has been trying to evict us for a while so he can get more $ for the apt. He's a d**k. SO now I am all stressed over finding this sweet girl a home and I am already so attached to her. I don't want to take her to the pound for fear that they'll just put her down and it seems all of the shelters are full and there is no way we can keep her. It feels like my heart is breaking over her already. I'm in Southern California so if anyone knws of any places that might help us please let me know. I so want to save her but in the meantime I must be focusing on saving myself as well. Man that probably sounds selfish.

Well that's it. Just need to vent I guess. Thanks for being there everyone.

[ukwildcat]

Hang in there!  Been off the vics since Dec6 and still have the anxiety but it is getting better.  I worry too much thats my problem and my 4 yr old constantly running around like a mad man.  But my kids are wonderful.

[mshell62]

I am glad you are working things through in your mind regarding the dog.  Someone will take her.  There are always people looking for a good dog, and it sounds like you really know alot about pets.  You will work this out.

As for day 11, yes, most of the WDs symptoms are gone.  I have to stay really busy, which it sounds like you do.  One of the long time posters encouraged me to take a look at a book called "End Your Addiction Now" by Gant.  I took a peek on the net at what it is about.  It sounds like it is going to be a BIG help in my progress with staying clean.  

"Much of his advice is geared towards the nutritional as opposed to the behavioral aspects of addiction.

The book shows how people develop substance problems -- generally because of a combination of emotional, biological and nutritional imbalance -- and what they encounter when they try to free themselves".

"Much of the book feels like a nutritional and psychological guide, especially when the writers discuss the long-term problems of rebalancing one's biochemistry after alcohol, smoking, cocaine, painkillers and marijuana have worked their damage."

I think this will be helpful because I am noticing the component of the psychological bond I have with vicodin.  I definitely notice that taking the vitamins help since vico depletes the body of so much stuff.  

Please keep your chin up!   There is life after Vicodin!

Michele

[virgo1969]

The dr. prescribed 0.5 Xanax 1/2 a tab 2x a day. I haven't really needed them during the day. It's at night when the pressure sets in. But it helps to get to sleep and stay asleep. Though today I took a 1/2 at work just to finish out the day.

I know I am in no shape to get attached to another thing right now be it a dog or another drug. There is no way of keeping the dog anyway so I need to keep telling myself that I can only do what's in my power and after that it's in God's hands. I'm sure somehow we will find somewhere for her to go.

I am so glad you are on day 11. That is quite an accomplishment. Are most of the w/d symptoms gone? And I so agree with you that there is no backtracking.

Thanks for taking the time to through some support my way.

-Virgo

[mshell62]

You are doing great.  Day 6 is quite an accomplishment.  

You are absolutely correct.  You have to take care of yourself most importantly.  How can you take care of anyone or any pet if you are not well??

Right now, you don't need any more issues to stress over.  I know you care for this wonderful dog.  The next few weeks are going to be a challenge for you alone.  Try to do whatever you can to get some help with the dog.  You can't do it all right now.  You are doing a whole lot just staying off the pills.  

Stay on the vitamins.  Were you able to get something for sleep or anxiety from the doctor?  It helps with W/Ds.  But only if doctor gives them to you and you taper off those, also.  

Hang in there.  This is well worth all the anxiety.

I am on day 11 and although every day has had it's challenges, I wouldn't do over again for the world!  No backtracking!

Keep us posted.

Michele