vicodin about 20 mg a day 5 years and feel nuts?

[STRAYKAT]

I read about the people with emotional rollercoaster rides of emotions when coming off vicodin but i am all over and not off it.
I am already going through real life pain,and have always been a bit of an emotional wreck or totally numb, one or the other.. so I am sure that does not help.
I am on  cymbalta and klonopin, older and have no family to run to. Just an on off male friend who cant take my moods.

I never passedt 5 pills a day in the 5 years I have been on it. so my average dose is about 15 mg a day.
I can't get anymore  from the doc. if I wanted.

SO...  I wonder if the fact that when I take a vicodin I either cry and feel releif or do not cry and feel happier is a sign that I am going throughiwithdrawlas (feelings of great depression) in between doses? Thank you for any wisdom . I come and go here so I will check back later...

[luciddreamrgrl]

This is normal. I was way worse on the pills than I ever was off them. Being on pain pills is a constant roller coaster rides. When you take them, your flying high and feeling good for an hour or two. But the minute you start coming down, you feel angry and cranky. Now that I am off the pills I don't have mood swings all day. I'm more even. I'm either sad and worn out all day or happy with energy all day. Even though some days are hard, I prefer being even to the constant ups and downs. Quitting pills is something you won't regret eventually. I still think it was hard, but it's the best thing I've ever done for myself and my family.

[STRAYKAT]

really. so it can make you up and down even on a lower dose? God these pills are helpful and deadly..

[bama88]

The pills are adding to your depression. It's awful. Know your not alone in this. We are all together in th mess. You can do this. I wish id quit when I was on hydro. But no not me. I thought if they uped my dose id be better. Id stop hurting. Then id be better. I was so wrong. This drug doesn't care how old you are. How smart you are. It don't work like that.  I wish you all the success in this. You can do it. Take back your power. Read my post I'm in a battle to save my life. You have the power.

[Stupidme49]

I am right there with you! on day 4 now. My stomach is so upset. I can't get anymore lorcet, which is what I am off off now, Its tough but you can do it. I want a pill so bad but I don't want to do this all over again. Good luck.

[saddy6]

I'm on day 3 for what seems to be the hundreth time and the emotional roller coaster caused by the pills is the worst. I've finally made my first appt to talk with someone as I've never gone that extra step for aftercare and that has been my big downfall. I agree the pills add to the depression and won't fix anything by starting up again. We all need to fight through this and support each other all we can to come out on the other end clean and sober.