weaning down off of methadone

[Imdonewithit]

I first would like to start out by saying, it's like "looking in a mirror". I identify with you over everything your saying. referring to Bamaindian.  I too am living a double life. meaning, my grown children, family or friends know NOTHING about my secret addiction. I have been taking liquid meth for roughly 13 years. my supplier had lost his take homes and I was left without while taking 30mg a day. The w/d was nothing I had ever felt before., I believe I had even passed out in my shower., I went to the E.R. 2 x and they gave me a single dose of Ativan. I swore I would never ever go back to taking it but once I was finally free and clear, I ended up getting 100 mg a week, taking 30mg day 15 in the am and 15 in the evening. here I am 13 years later and i'm trying to detox while at home. I have brought myself down to 10mg a day, 5mg in the am and 5mg in the evening. this is the end of my second week. I'm feeling the effects of w/d but very mildly before I even get out of bed in the morning, nothing too bad but I can tell its from cutting down. They say once you go down to 10mg or below is when you start to feel it. I guess my fear is being so sick from it that my family notices. , and all the side effects I felt the last time. crawling out of my skin, chills, sweats, throwing, diarreah, no appetite. I'm hoping because i'm doing this slow and steady it won't be so bad., maybe a week or so of not sleeping. I plan on cutting back to 0.25mg every 2 weeks. yes, that's very slow. , but I heard it was the best way to go. I too, am not in a position to go to the Dr, as he is our family friend. I also work from home and don't have any insurance., I can't afford any subs., other than Excedrin pm and will have to rely on hot baths. I always remember that being comforting. I am now 52 years old and i'm just tired of feeling numb. I can't cry when I should, my emotions are off. I want to enjoy life now., and although I have been able to function while I've been on it., i'm just tired of running around with all of the energy and nowhere to go. it's a waste. i'm also getting menopausal and who knows what other health issues that arise as I age. I don't want to worry about mixing medications. i'm just done now. i'm tired of being controlled by it. can someone tell me if cutting back in such small doses over  two week periods will help w/ w/d? As I was saying, i'm not in a position to tell anyone I know what my life has been like and I have a tremendous amount of guilit as it is hiding it. I feel I can't carry on a new relationship because of it, and my past relationships have ended, i'm sure my absence of emotions played some part in it., no ALL of it, that's for sure. These posts are helping me by the way which is how I came to start weaning myself.  I hope you got through your w/d's ok and your on your way to a full recovery.

[Imdonewithit]

Thank you so much for replying its been awhile. I have posted earlier today, still on methadone but down to 2 1/2 ml a day. I have been doing it so slow, of course since this post above, I had fluctuated when I was feeling horrible, but i'm going to stick it through and be tough, keeping in mind what is causing me to feel so awful will help to know I will be feeling new again in a month or so.
thanks!! love this forum

[gnarly_1]

Hi  welcome to the forum  methadone is a monster to kick  it good your getting your dose down  from here you have to go slow but your plan sounds solid when I kicked I went in and out of withdrawals every time I dropped below 10mg there are a few things that will help   get up to walmart and pick up a 3 in 1 vitamin calcum/magnesum/zinc   methadone depleats these in your body  start by talking 4 with breakfast and 4 with dinner  I only wish I had found this sooner it will really cut down on the withdrawals keep posting for support we have a few members who have detoxed off this drug check you post later in the day good luck and God bless
............................................Gnarly....................................