week 7 on anti hcv tx, 4 years clean an am fighting useing again

[almanu]

week 7 on inferon.i feell like useing heroin again. im really trying to fight it as hard as i can, but this treatment is killing me ,help

[macksabratt]

I am so happy to hear that you didn't give in!You can do it and when you feel like you can't we are here to help you.I am proud of you.
Mack

[almanu]

im feeling a lot stronger now, im over the worst now regarding using, to hell am i trowing a way 4 years of being cause i feel low on tx fck that,i was abused as a 12 year old in an industrial school that i was in from 12 to 14 my mam couldnt cope and i was a bit wild, so the goverment send me of the a prison full of christian brother pedophiles, i was having vivid nightmares of the abuse, i was just thinking one hit and all this pain goes away, the only thing is EVERYTHING goes away, wife kids house the lot, so im a lot stronger now thanx for the kind words.

[verygreatful]

I went through that treatment, finished 6months ago. Thank God!  When I started treatment I was addicted to massive amounts of opiates along with methadone.  I was so sick on the tx that I just went cold turkey off everything except methadone which I weaned off of for 3 wks. I am clean almost 1 yr.  
I just kept making myself believe that I was sick from the tx.  Sure I wanted to use but was to weak to even try to get anything.
I am now free of drugs and disease and feel great.  Please don't use, it will just make things harder.

[almanu]

thanx for your kind words,
it not the phyical urge to use i get, its the mental one, you know the evil addict saying to me, c,mon al now one will know you had a cheeky smoke, BUT I WILL, im 36 im an addict 21 years, ive never been clean this long, tx will not beat me.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Hey there - i did the clinical trial that developed the peg therapy. 5 million units interferon every other day and riba daily at the Mayo Clinic. Now its encapsualted in a glycol and beleive it or not its much more friendly to the human body today. But any encounter is undescribable. I ended TX with a big UND and thats a win......it was heck - but it ultimately was worth it...and I sometimes wondered if I would even survive it - you can do it....distract yourself - you sometimes even need to try and step out of your body and look at your situation from a different perspective. Get lab results and research them. Play doctor with yourself as the patient. It can be done! I am proof........

[NovusVita]

I certainly don't take it personally that 12step is not your thing. It's not mine either. That's why I said "IF you're a 12 step type of person....". The point I was trying to make is that whatever worked for you to get you clean is what you should look to now to keep you clean.

[krashing_now]

please don't give up but i have hep c for yrs now and have done nothng about it I no stupid I am in some crazy dnail thingy .. but I am so so tired all the time .. can you tell me a little about what your gong through ? and about wanting to use , were opiate addicts thats what our brain tells us to do ... well mine does always .. for example today i was dribing home from work going home to a bad bad rlationship which I procrastinate leavibg why I dont no  ( well  money is short  maybe thats why ) and i was thinkng I can drive right  a few miles and  I ACTAULY thought of getting heroin this after many yrs of not doing it .. then i said okay  dopn't pay attention to that I will end up n jail and back on a run  I don't need it .
peace be with you  and I hope things are a bit better
kym

[almanu]

please please dont take this up wromg, but i spent 18mths in residential care kicling my habit, ive went to a few, but most of the problems dont relate to me, ie im tom couldnt pay the gas so i relapesed, me, hi my name in alan in a war ishot a 14 year old boy in the head as i tought he was lminen us i cant sleep over it, but i dont take drugs any more. serrry for the rant, i jusy hate AA.GOD BLESS M8

[NovusVita]

4 years clean is such an amazing accomplishment. You don't want to throw that away for anything. Posting here is a good sign. You're seeking encouragement to stay clean. If you're a 12 step type of person go to a meeting. If you have access to any type of counseling or therapy make an urgent appointment. This is relapse prevention time and whatever you did to get clean you need to do now to stay that way.

You need to tell you doctor that this medication is affecting you in this way. Perhaps steps can be taken to mitigate the symptoms that are making you feel this way. I don't know if this medication is essential but if not maybe you could stop it?

You are strong. That is clear from your 4 years of recovery. You can get through this. Access whatever resources are available to you. I know I'm just an anonymous stranger but I will really be hoping that you can make it through this without using.