what a releif

[sweatinit]

today is day 6 for me and finally feeling well. i still look like h**l but went to visit my parents. Got some alone time with my dad, who is an alcoholic. I spilled my guts and told him everything. he knew thta i dabbled, in fact he gave them to me at times when i would lie about having pain. (he has some bad back/leg probs). anyway he was soooo very suportive. it was such a relief to be able to tell someone that i love. now i know i will be stronger in recovery as i can call him for support. thanks to you guys i have done this. otherwise i'd be doing this alone. I am actually thinkign about doing a meeting, but i am so afraid.

[hydrosnot4thisgirl]

Yes I do live in the states... Cali, the best state! ;) My dad had his own vices for a long time and I know he would def understand, he is my first best friend and besides my husband the most important man in my life, but I have sum shame that I hid it from him for so long. That day will come when I do tell him, just not yet. :) Since my husband is also detoxing with me we have been a great support for each other. Lots and lots of I love yous! Best thing is I actually slept last night!! It took me forever to finally fall asleep but once I did it was good! I only woke up twice and I slept till 10:30. It felt great! I woke up and made breakfast and I feel like day 5 is going to be a good day!! Congrats on your day 7!! Keep it up, I know I will!! This site is so amazing, I know it would've been so much harder w/o all of you!! Have a great day!

[imrprod]

Feel the fear and do it anyway...that is what they say at meetings.  Our fears will keep us locked up in our addiction. Meetings are great places to meet people just like us.  You will eventually come to love the people and the meetings, Give it time.  Go and listen when you hear someone say something you can relate to go and tell them they will be glad they helped you stay sober.  You fear is that you are going to meetings with people that are addicts the funny thing is so are you...we are crazy us addicts but that is why when we get together we can heal together.

[sweatinit]

Cgaretti, yeah, i think with thte meetings we build up this thing in our heads, almost like the fear and anxiety of quitting drugs, that are just lies. weird i cuz overall i am a fairly social person. I think my fear come in with seeing someone i know...i have a pride issue; BAD, ya know the one who can do it alll and keep it all together. You can do this. if you can taper down, i have read that the w/d is much easier. good luck and keep posing.

Notforthisgirl,  sure hope u slept! and the dinner thing is amazing! i was sick for a few days and couldnt eat much. Ya know your dad, like mine could be your greatest alli (sp?). i thought the same thing; i didnt want to worry him. The difference is that i woudl take pills from him and hi would give them to me. i had to tell him to put his stuff away and make sure he doesnt give me anymore.  Congrats on day5 for you! the hard part is over; physically anyway. are you in the states? keep posting here. it is keeping me strong and busy :)

[hydrosnot4thisgirl]

**BIG** congrats on 6 days!! And even better that you were able to tell ur Dad!! My Dad knows I've had an issue in the past but he does not know that I started again, he lives far and I didn't want to worry hom so I just never said anything. What I wouldn't give to have him on my side today! As an exaddict he knows what its like so its great that u have him for support!! :) I am on day/nite 4 & I actually made and ATE dinner!! I'm feeling good, just hoping for some sleep tonight... I hope, I hope!! I've been getting about 4 hours a nite so I suppose I should be grateful for that!! Again 6 days is amazing, you should be so, so proud of urself!! Good luck in the coming days!!

[Charetti]

I am still working on quitting but also afraid of going to a meeting.  Lately I have been asking about my friends experiences with NA and have heard really wonderful things about it.  I think its just a 'get going' sort of thing, not too much thinking about it.

And wow, 6 days!  Thats amazing and brave!!