when will this punishment end

[bama88]

Hey yall. Im doing very good. 30 Days of no oxy. Knee recovery is flying colors. Then bam. Huge toothache. I cracked a tooth on eating nuts. A nut. I feel like God is punishing me. First anothee surgery. Now this. The good news is my tooth hurts worst than my knee haha. The bad news is contuing pain meds. No oxy though. I waa feeling pretty sore yesterday and only took a half of demerol. Doc wants me to have it on stand by. But wont write another script. He told me he was very proud of me when i got stiches out and showed him all the pills i had left. I wanted to have him dispose. He said with six weeks of pt i may need them. Also.wrote nucintha. But i dont know about that med and didnt even fill it. We talked about my detox and love affair of oxy. He understood that oxy is one od the worst detoxs to go thru. He said its up there with herion. He said if i keep using demerol.the way im taking i wont get sick. He said . Ill see. Oooo this tooth hurts. I paced the floor all night. I iced my kree and face. Lol. Why am i getting tested like this? I must be paying for my sins.

[bama88]

Im back. With rubber lips and talk like daffy duck. Sufferen sufitax. Remeber thats what he said. I sound like him. Spiting when i talk. Just like him. I had three teeth pulled. Two back ones and one on side. Im gonna bridge the side. I am not wanting to look like a pumkin. I have pretty teeth. Not with that big pumkin tooth hole. I know i can get a bridge cause im not spending money on fill in oxies. Whoo hoo. Its hard to swallow a fifteen dollar pill lol.........come to think of it. Its rather easy. Just hurts your pocket. As far as that nucynta or whatever it was i threw it out. Im gonna use the demerol only as needed. No more no less. Actually cut one in half. I was embarresed i let my teeth get this bad. I loved jolly ranchers when i was high. Plus i talk on phone at work. But i still think drugs mess up your teeth.

[minn66]

Hey, bama, hang in there! You want a laugh? Here I went and kicked the tabs and guess what? I have been taking clorazepate since my divorce. Never took more than I was prescribed, in fact, some days didn't take it at all. Well, I hadn't seen my doc in over 6 months and so when I called for a refill they said I needed to come in for an appointment. Well, I tried to schedule one and they said only emergencies this week. So, unbeknownst to me, I am going through withdrawal... I haven't had any in 10 days. I never thought I was addicted to that. I only took it if I felt anxious. Some days I never took it at all. I feel so stupid, I never realized it was physically addictive but apparently it is. I am praying for you, bama. Lol, I guess we must be strong or we wouldn't have these trials to go through. I have to laugh because I thought the tabs (which were prescribed for legitimate pain and chronic issues) was bad. The wd from clorazepate is hell. I am so thankful my husband is so understanding. I am sorry for rambling but I hope you can see the humor in this. I got off the tabs and wham! Hit with another! I hope you feel better soon!

[lulu747]

Oh you poor gals!  I hate dentists and everything to do with someone working in my mouth.  When I was in nursing school I got grossed out when having to brush someone else's teeth!  I could do all the other care no problem-including changing depends(:

Lidocaine is your friend when it comes to teeth.  In my dream book it says that when you dream about teeth falling out it means you aren't speaking the truth and need to.  So is this punishment for the lies we told to ourselves and others?  Or just God's wacky sense of humour?  Hang in there Super Bamma...that's what I'm going to call you.  You're strength and fortitude inspires me....Lu

[dominosarah]

I need a nurse.......

[vicki595]

YUP!   And it will keep getting ripped up because the thing SWELLS and then you'll scrape it again and then when you talk you'll rip it more and it goes on and on...toture!

[dominosarah]

I will check that out!!  Holy God my tongue is tore up!!

[vicki595]

Sara-  Buy some wax that the kids put on their braces and glop it on the sharp edge...works like a .... charm!!

[justme1119]

I have tried the nucenta.  It is not for me!  I noticed withdrawals very quickly with that med, even before I had time to get use to it.  I absolutely hated it.  Don't go on my experience though.  See if it works for you.  I think  you know how to be careful now.  And research.  I think the demerol might be the best for you because you are able to sleep.  If I was hurting like that I would want to sleep.  Bless you sweet lady.

[IBKleen]

You are typing from a dentist's chair? You are a brave soul. LOL Let us know how you make out.

[dominosarah]

I would like to pass on the National Dentist Day!!!!

[bama88]

Im siting in dentist chair now. I cant take another night of that. I think the drugs mess up our teeth. Ya know from cotton mouth. Sugar craving etc. Just one more thing for me to go thru. I remeber bkitty going thru same thing. Yep lets have a national dentist day

[djeffries]

An er dr can do a block for you, they put an injection like the dentist does. It holds you over.for the dentist.

[dominosarah]

I know how you are feeling about the tooth!  My one back molar(the only one i have) just broke too.  Have a real sharp piece left and it is tearing up my tongue.  Our teeth seem to fall apart after we clean up.  They took quite a beating too.  Call the dentist and get it fixed. Now i need to take the same advice i just gave to you!!!

[lulu747]

Hey Bamma girl-sorry for your suffering!  You are doing great with the meds thing.  Hold on to that and be proud of how far you have come.  I have no idea what that other drug you mentioned was.  Do your research-I know we have talked about our mistrust of doctors(:  Anyways...Hang in there you are doing awesome.  I'm here if you need me....Lu

[I_Have_Fallen]

yes, i  loved that we were reaching out to each other at the same time -maybe we should consider the utube thing and title something like "if you abuse this is what happens when you want to give it up" JUST SAY NO (maybe even to your doctor????)   ijk  but it is making me giggle again

[bama88]

Aww i was posting on your post while you on mine. God heard our prayers. I still think hes testing me. Or im paying for my sins. I keep praying and think of Jobe. Satan really wants me to fall. I am not a jeasus freak but im a mesionic jew. Thats a jew who found jesus. Ive got lots of posts on here. I read yours today. Sorry i wasnt present much of yesterday.

[I_Have_Fallen]

Although I am in the throes of stuff right now and therefore have not seen fit to offer my pitiful advice prior to this - I KNOW THIS MUCH IS TRUE - and please don't take me as some Jesus freak cos I'm not - but I am a believer and you ARE NOT suffering for your sins, imho, because Jesus already did that.  We are all tested and put through the fires so that we can become better people through trials - kinda like steel is forged in fire to become stronger - we all must endure these trials so that we may pass on comfort to others- this all is only my opinion, but I think Jesus died on the cross not to just save me, but so that I could become a giver of his comfort - one thing I have found in just a day on this forum is that there are LOTS of caring people here - regardless of their beliefs or yours - I join them - again not just to help myself - but maybe to be of help to you and others ... Fallen