will I stay like a crazy mometer

[mometo5]

I have 5 kids and have been taking hycodne 7.5 mg for over a year but I took 3 at a time and went through 90 every 2 weeks sometime a lil more. Yesterday i took 2 last night cause i couldnt sleep, this am My body hurt so bad I cant put it into words. My kids are scared to even breath around me right now. i sweat and freeze throw up and just plain hurt. I feel like I am going crazy!!!!!!!!!! I tried to talk to my husband about a dexto program and he just dont understand what I am going through. he thinks i am makeing a bigger deal then what I really feel like. How long am I going to be this crazy monster that cant sit still and think and so full of anger cant stand myself.

[10356]

I agree with Kitty about going to your Dr. but not to get zanax.. but to get honest.. they have meds that can help through the process without the risk of addiction.. I was honest with mine and it was a great relief off my shoulders. he was also very supportive of me.. just wanted to let you know I woke up thinking about you.. You can do this.

[kittycat1433]

Well im not really one to be giving advice now but i have three kid's can't imagine 5 going thru withdrawl just keep saying your prayer's and that alone will make you feel better try to take ALOT of really hot bath's everyone alway's get's on me for saying take zanax but doctor perscribed of couarse i wouldcall the doc and see if you could make it just a little easier on yourself @least you would be able to sleep and not be so irratable.Iknow it is hell going thru w/d with children that is why i said abt the zanax and they are also addictive so short term till the lack of sleep and anxiety goes away.

[10356]

It would be good to show him this site mometo.. and I believe it would be a good idea to just flush the rest of your meds.. part of the anxiety and irritability you feel is you are divided. make a decision. I can tell you I have very fuzzy memories of my children's up bringing. I regret this for they speak of them with joy.. Our attitude plays such a big roll in getting through the detox.. very inexpensive meds from a drug store can help.. like melatonin we produce this naturally and it helps us sleep also the Hylands as I suggested.. Valerian Root works well for anxiety and a drive.. a desire to get out from under your addiction.. it steals so much from us and when we get to this point we are no longer getting high.. all we are doing is taking meds not to get sick. would it not be great to once again want to leave the house and be involved with your family.. for myself in the end the only interest I had was in feeding my addiction... Now I camp I take my dogs out and I interact with my kids and actually hear what they are saying.. and I must say my relationship with my husband.. I can feel again.. I really wish you the very best and the only way to achieve this is take a leap and believe you can do it....

[mometo5]

thank yall, yes I thinnk I am going to show him this site when he gets home. he really didnt know untill teh other day how many I was really takig. noone did. I called a detox place but they said that it would be 5, 0000. and that maybe my insurance would pay us back after the dact. but we had to pay it up front. i called teh insurance co. and they told me they covered that dr. but not the clinc. So I call her back she said my insruance co. was wrong that they would only cover if I came in as a dr. office visit not teh out pat. 3day program. i have cryed ever since I talk to her. I feel like there just is no hope now, but i dont want to be this person. I want to be clean and want to have my life back. i want to remember the good times of my children growing which is a blurr right now. I am going to stick to this site and post every chance I get. so far this has helped me the most. as far as what i will and already am going through. So I should just throw out what I have left and go cold trukey and try to mange the awful feeling I have right now?? thank yall again and I will get him on here so he can see I am not the only one who sweats cant sleep throws up and my legs and body crwal, I cant get comturable at all. its 10 time worse when i lay down to go to bed

[avisg]

lesa is right the worst of it is over after the first 5 days after you completely stop.So you may be just drawing it out by taking a few here and there .I would dump them and get it over with .I know it seems impossible but you can do it the long you wait the more you will build it up in your mind the worse it will be.Just tell the kids mom is really sick but will be getting better soon.Can you get your hubby on here so he can read and get a better understanding about what you are going threw?"

[want2bme]

I aslo have 5 children and about 1 month ago I was right were you are right now!!  I have been living the life I dreamed about for about 2 years and by saying that I mean I do not take the little yellow devil pills any longer!  This site helped with the support I needed while I did this at home still caring as much as I could for my family..Look up the Thomas recep. on here. It is an assortment of vitamins to help with the detox and the withdrawls you will go through for the next few days.  Keep posting..and reading other peoples stories!  It can be done  

[sooners181]

If I were you I would go to a detox if at all possible. providing you have insurance. I understand where your at and i know the feeling of about to lose it. its ok to take a break from your family in order to take care of yourself. opiates are a monster. Best wishes. Jeff

[10356]

hey mometo5.. welcome to the forum.. this to will pass.. it takes about 5 days to start to feel physically better.. mentally a lil longer but we can help the process by changing our outlook about wd.. also there are things that can ease the pains. hot showers baths as many as you can get it.. drink lots of fluids. they sell a product for restless leg Hylands it helps as does walking.. actually walking combats the anxiety aches and grumpiness.. we also have a amino acid protocol vitamins and such to help the process you will find that on the bottom right. as far as your husband. I believe only another drug addict can understand so thank goodness he does not.. You can do this and you will get to the other side.. sounds like you have a lot to live for and I send congrats on making the decision to get clean.. keep posting reading reach out for support. they also have aa na counseling to help with outside support it would not hurt to look into them.. Take good care of you ok. lesa