the devil

[chris920]

im sooo addicted to vicoden.i take alot to the point i wonder when am i gonna die from this it scares me soo bad!!!!! but i cant stop! and i dont want  the hot and cold flashes the baddddd pain in your legs the sleepless night mood swings the feeling sick to your stomach.i hate myself for taking the first one.i want more than anything in my life to stop taking these.can someone post a way to not have these symptoms and still have some energy so i can try to get of these pills.and noone noes in my family i even take them and i could never tell my dr im addicted eigther it would have to be a way were i wouldnt have to ask noone for help and i could do it on my own.PLEASE

[Cassie415]

The withdrawal should last a little less than a week and there are things to ease it but nothing to completely get. A few bad days though is worth your life, and you will feel much better in the long run. You won't have to worry about whether you're going to die, and you will NATURALLY get your energy and happiness back, without depending on a drug. You will be in control. When you get sick (flu) you deal with that for a few days- week, think of it as a really bad case of the flu that you have to get through. WIth support from people on here and a determination to stop you can do it. It helps to have support from people in your life, or at least someone that knows whats going on. There are other places to find support if you don't want to tell your family, although I do imagine telling your family would help, however I have not been able to tell mine so I do understand that. Keep posting on here, and make a list of all the reasons you want to stop, and write down what your future looks like without drugs and with, I think you will be much better without them. The drugs offer you short term happiness and escape but getting clean from them will bring you much more happiness in the long term and for your life.

[ZJILLIAN]

I do know what you are feeling. You are really suffering.It comes through your words.

I can so identify with you. Until 37 days ago,  I would watch myself taking handfuls of pills not even knowing what they were, not able to stop myself. Some very small part of myself was standing way back and watching and wondered at this behavior. Things in my life got worse and worse and worse emotionally. I would try and stop and the longest was 2 weeks.

It is possible to scare yourself into feeling you can't handle WD. But it is time limited and not as bad as what you are going through now. I knew I couldn't stop, I really had lost control and I was suffering and my husband was suffering my despair.

I felt I had to get a grip on my life and I kept obsessing and obsessing going round and round and round in circles trying to figure out what to do. So many attempts at changing something in my life but keeping the drugs and everything kept on getting worse and worse. I also didn't quite connect what I felt with taking drugs silly as that sounds. The drugs were a SEPARATE problem.

And then after a bad argument with my husband, I went into a room by myself and found myself on my knees, literally. And I gave up. I knew I couldn't do it. And I prayed to whatever it is that we call by the name of God. And loud and clear, like a voice from deep within me, I heard myself say "give up drugs". And I did.

It has been 37 days now and I feel it really was like a miracle or what certainly felt like one. The WD was the least difficult one that I had ever experienced. I walked around in a state of wonder for about a week. I could not believe that I hadn't taken any pills.

I don't know if any of this is at all helpful. I guess the point is that it is possible, and even likely, to stop using.  At least is was for me when I was so reduced, so helpless, that I finally gave up.

[dominosarah]

I agree with lee.  This is also the part of addiction that really confuses me.  We abuse the meds to the point of wondering if we will wake up in the morning but yet dont want to feel sick for a few days.  There is no magic pill to take.  The wd's are going to happen.  There are things you can do to lessen the symptoms.  Look in the health pages on the ride hand side of this page.  You will find the Thomas Recipe and the amino acid protocol.  How much are you taking?  Getting honest with your doctor would help also.   Are you going to taper or go ct?   Keep talking with us.       sara

[leeisgettingclean]

you are wanting to much....nothing is going to take away the pain of w/ds, if you are truely ready to quit why not tell the doc? He is the ONLY one that can give you anything to make you a little more comfortable