will i get withdrawals again

[shakeness]

ive been takin about 1 to 1 and a half 80s recreationally about 2-4 times a week only cut them into 1/4s when taking them but always at least one full 80, and am now trying to stop cold turkey its hell but i am a very mentally strong person but get the feeling because of legit med reasons i will end up needing it  from time to time if its been 10 days and i accidentally relapse will my withdrawals come back and if so will it in full force like originally.  also if mentally strong enough can one get past withdrawals them begin taking them again very in frequently like once a week only when in serious pain?

[nomo357]

For me, when I have fallen off the wagon and just had one pill, it has killed me. Not physically, but mentally!!!! For me personally, my day clean count is a big deal, and I don't want to screw it up. If you have an addiction, just STOP! If you have legit pain down the road, you can deal with that then, don't worry about it now! If that happens, try to get on a very small dose for pain and have someone else control the meds, or try to work with your doc to find non-opiate pain drugs. It doesn't matter for me whether I take it for pain, or to get high, it ends me back in the same boat! I ended my last clean period with a broken foot, that started it and it went down hill from there!

[Dump_Subs]

I think I get it.  And like these guys I will tell you that one pill is too many and 1000 is not enough.  If you crave one, and ALL your buddies are doing them, I would suggest that you are gambling with your future as an addict.  But I say I get it because I think I understand NOW.  I always needed to find out for myself.  In the begining I would try to stagger my use so that I would not get physical wd's.  What I did not understand was the mental wd's I would get with occasional use.  Some depression some anxiety, and it would make normal days hard days.  Therefore, I would do more 80's.  I now understand I am an addict and it was so hard for me to admit it.  But here I am 45 days sober and everyday is a high.  No rocky ups and downs.   Dude, you are at a crossroads, why suffer more than you have to.  But unfortunately you have to see for yourself, like we all did.   You most likely can't control it.  Nobody can really.

[LeaAnn807]

Can you be more specific about what you are asking?

[laurel453]

Hi :)

i don't understand very well what you are asking about, sorry.

from what i understand is that you've been using pills for recreational use, this is addiction. There is nothing like an accidental relapse, i mean, if you use opiates for pain, you are making a conscious decision of taking opiates again and risking to fell into active addiction again. You may need in the future some opiates for pain , post surgery, etc.... then you can take measures like having someone to give the medication to you. But  you are thinking of taking once a week the pills for pain ?