2 drinks vs. party all night

[guilty_gabby]

I can have one or two beers then stop. I do that a few times a week, sometimes on the weekend. I have beer in my fridge most of the time, and Im not compelled to drink it.

The major problem is when (I dont kid myself about it) I desire to get f**d up (its usually at a bar or a party with friends). I go ahead and drink way too much about once a week, sometimes twice... And I start without a limit, because, like I said, the goal here is to get messed up.


So, it seems I have 2 different behaviors when it comes to drinking.  Id like to stop binge drinking without necessarily giving up the occasional drink.  

***Does anyone have a like experience?***

This is more than just cutting down on drinking. This is giving up the fun part! This is giving up the dangerous and destructive part!  I understand that there is a lot of support for those who quit drinking, but is there any like support for those who still have a drink here or there, but quit getting wasted?  

I know that when I quit getting wasted Ill need help/ support. I just feel like it will offend people or make people resent me if I admit to having a drink here or there.  One way or the other I have to quit binge drinking!!!!!!!!!

[uberadtx]

Ibizan: you are too funny "i 2 loved the buzz...but it stopped loving me"  Ain't that the truth!!!  Thats what happened to me of course.  I did a lot of controlled drinking research myself.  I even gave up drinking for lent but did tons of drugs! hahaha Not funny then, but I can look back and see what a jackass I was.

guilty_gabby:  I HATED those days after the night before.  The complete misery.  All of it has to do with the way alcohol effects your brain. Being hungover is not fun and you pile on the emotion and it just gets worse. But keep coming back here and posting about what you are going through.  We are all here to help each other, drunk, sober or in-between!

[ibizan]

i understand where ur at dude...trying to control it and c if u can....guess u hafta put urself thru the paces..if u fail at controlled drinking and i think u will u'll know what u hafta do.I 2 drank like u.....i'm 52,started drinking at age 14..to get drunk....drugs came in2 play at 17 mainly pot then i went to Valium and cocaine.....i would try 2 control but always lost control......so i had to give it up at 28.its good ur questioning this now at ur age...i 2 loved the buzz...but it stopped loving me!do u have blackouts?

[guilty_gabby]

What Im saying is that if I quit getting drunk I will be proud of myself- but I already know it wont be easy and I will need support. Im 26, and yea, getting a buzz is definately a huge part of the social scene most of the time, not only that, but I enjoy getting f'd up... And its usually a great time...


On the flip- When I drink too much I feel soo guilty the day after, really ashamed and embarrased, sometimes even worthless and depressed- even if I didnt do anything embarrassing or out-of-control the night before.  Im just embarrassed at myself for getting so messed up. Then I feel ashamed and hate my life for the moment. I do not want to live that way. I do not want to be so mad and ashamed at myself! I already have a questionable self-esteem, and hating myself during a hangover sets me so far back!

But I know that there is such a thing as drinking in moderation, which I do not typically practice, but Id like to try that before I decide that Im not allowed to drink at all.  I have not previously set drinking limitations when I set out to party, but Id like to try it.


Whether  I have a drink here and there ( yes, like NORMAL people) or quit altogether- I'll need help. I know that most recovering alcoholics do not drink at all. Im wondering if my need for support will be taken as seriously if I still have a drink like a "normal" drinker would.

[ibizan]

those who can drink here and there minus getting wasted are social drinkers!they don't need support cuz their NORMAL drinkers and most if not all of us here aren't..thats why we're here!how old r u?sounds like u youngster and digging the buzz in ur social scene...binge drinking to get drunk is a RED FLAG.....pee on those who will get offended if u don't drink..how immature of them and they probly have a prob....good for u that the red light has gone on in ur brain and u know u got a problem!