Is this binge drinking? could i have a problem??

[missuv]

okay i am 22 years old(female) and i have been drinking since about 18. i only drink on the weekends but sometimes i get really carried away to the point that i black out. i have probably blacked out atleast 20 times. i wake up in the morning and remember NOTHING AT ALL. i have ended up in the hospital once for alcohol poisining. i have been so drunk to the point that i pulled down my pants infront of my mom and peed on her brand new couch. i have peed in the fridgerater( my husband caught me doing it) and i have peed myself on many occasions. i have also pooped on the floor next to my bed and my husband found it. i never remember doing any of this. i also throw up just about every time i drink buts its only when i drink ALOT. i drink alot. i love jack and jim. isnt drinking the hard stuff worse for you?? we go to parties and i just get out of control. im always the one getting plasterd by playing drinking games. everyone knows that i am a big drinker. my husband takes very good care of me and hates when i drink to much. he tries to tell me ive had enough and i just get mad at him and start sneaking drinks. after a night of drinking i have toooons of bruises and scratches. this happens all the time. it seems like drinking is the only thing that will loosen me up. i only crave alcohol on fridays right after work, i never do on the week days. is it possible i have a problem? is this considered binge drinking?

[strawb]

i go through very similar stuff when i drink, black outs / memory loss / peeing the bed etc and have been known to  lose my temper and become rather aggressive and it scares me.

i dont think of myself as a binge drinker and i can take or leave alcohol, i dont crave it or  need to drink all the time, but when i get into the swing i often find its too late and im wasted before i've had the chance to realise i need to stop drinking.

when my partner tries to tell me ive had enough i too get mad and tend to try and sneak drinks

i cant remember getting home or having conversations or what happened to get the bruises and my partners fed up of having to carry me to bed, pick me up wheni fall over or change the mattress when ive ruined it

i need advice on how to keep a lid on the drinking too much to get in that state, but dont want to stop drinking altogether

[vmvnpv]

Like schafeybud said, you can't just stop.  Alcoholism is a very real disease and like any other disease you need help to get rid of it and you need continued help to keep it out of your life.  Detox, AA and a sponsor are your answers to getting back on the right track and staying there.

[schafeybud]

You have a serious alcohol problem,and you just can't STOP like stecdeville said. You need to check into a rehab,maybe a sober house for about 6 months and kill this problem before it most likely will kill you!!

[Ingrid444]

I use to drink every Friday night like you, and when I start with that first drink it is party time. My husband doesn't drink anymore, because he has a other problems with alcohol.
Unless you can drink socially and use it in moderation without it causing problems in your life, it's OK. You have to decide if you like your life the way it is, it sounds like you don't, so you have answered your own question. Some people can stop without help others need support. I was able to stop because I DECIDED that I was sick and tired of feeling ashamed, sick, embarrassed, afraid I would lose friends. I would wake up finding bruises on my body I had no idea where they came from. I had a huge lump on my chin, where I semi remember falling and it could have been really serious. It was a real wake up call, realizing that I could have really been hurt badly, and how embarrassing it would have been to explain the story to my family and friends. I have stopped drinking and have found other ways to entertain myself. I am much happier and feel proud of myself again.
Ingrid

[stecdeville]

Trust me, you must stop. Right now I have been diagnosed with problems in my liver and im getting checked out tommorow, and trust me, the hell I'm going through right now is absolutely horrific .

Either way, you gotta think about it as a life or death situation.

[vmvnpv]

This is a big problem.  I want to tell you what's going on from your husbands point of view.  I'm where he is right now.  I watch my husband do like you do (minus the peeing, pooping and bruising).  It hurts me so much to see him get the way he does.  He's not physically abusive nor is he verbally abusive but to see him in that state hurts me emotionally.  I know it's hurting your husband to see you in that state and he's doing good now to take care of you but believe me, there's going to come a day when he says enough is enough.  It happened to me about 3 weeks ago.  I told my husband that this was it and he had to leave.  I just couldn't handle it any more.  You need to get help before it ruins you and your marriage.  AA and a sponsor will help you tremendously.  Do it for yourself.  I know the pain your husband is going through and it is not fun.