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Just Please Help me, a pathetic alcoholic Mum
Dear Freind,
I have tried so many tmes to stop drinking. I have a million reasons to stop and half a million to keep on. For me, the withdrawl symptoms are so bad that i drink every day. Even tho every day I swear to God above that I won't drink. I get the severe sweats, the shakes and the anxiety.
Even with all that, every day I swear to myself and God himself that I will only have one to ease the withdrawl. But that never happens. One leads to two and two leads to four. Eventually I'm passing out on my bed around 3 am. waking up at 7:30 with my kids, G-13, B-9, to get them off to school, then sleeping the day away until they, and my hubby come home. I know this is not normal or right. I curse myself every day for my weakness. And I hte myself for not having the will power to say "No!!! Not today, I WILL nit drink today!" I have Systemic Lupus, Degenerative Disc Disease and a long list of rediculous pain oriented ailments that are a very hard strain on my 38 yr old body. I take numerous pain pills and anti-inflammatories, none of which I am addicted to. But WHY for the love of God, WHY cant I stop this stupid obsession/love affair with alcohol??????I will wecome anyone's help and advice. I am so desperate adn nearing the end of my rope. I dont know how to go on b'cuz I want to stop drinking so badly. Pleeeeeeease pray for me. -Heidi
I have tried so many tmes to stop drinking. I have a million reasons to stop and half a million to keep on. For me, the withdrawl symptoms are so bad that i drink every day. Even tho every day I swear to God above that I won't drink. I get the severe sweats, the shakes and the anxiety.
Even with all that, every day I swear to myself and God himself that I will only have one to ease the withdrawl. But that never happens. One leads to two and two leads to four. Eventually I'm passing out on my bed around 3 am. waking up at 7:30 with my kids, G-13, B-9, to get them off to school, then sleeping the day away until they, and my hubby come home. I know this is not normal or right. I curse myself every day for my weakness. And I hte myself for not having the will power to say "No!!! Not today, I WILL nit drink today!" I have Systemic Lupus, Degenerative Disc Disease and a long list of rediculous pain oriented ailments that are a very hard strain on my 38 yr old body. I take numerous pain pills and anti-inflammatories, none of which I am addicted to. But WHY for the love of God, WHY cant I stop this stupid obsession/love affair with alcohol??????I will wecome anyone's help and advice. I am so desperate adn nearing the end of my rope. I dont know how to go on b'cuz I want to stop drinking so badly. Pleeeeeeease pray for me. -Heidi
Hi Friends!! I made it thru my birthday yesterday without drinking and even more impressive is I made it thru my 9 year old son's slumberparty without a drink! Me home alone on my birthday with five 9 year old boys! Talk about a new type of hell on earth. LOL... but i made it thru the night and they were up at 6am and i survived it, now 10 days sober and feeling great. Thanks to everyone for your support.
COMMUNITY LEADER
there goes that alcoholic male ego again......u need more work on that!:)
There you go being a pooh-vert again! ha ha And you tried to blame me last time! Thats alright, I blame everyone else too! Oh you say maybe I'll get lucky huh, more like she'll get lucky! I am the Rpoo!
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Ach u young cub u!u go celebrate ur youth and miraculous longevity....ain't nuthin but numbers boy!heck this old gal turned 56 8-1!maybe u'll get lucky w/ur wife donning a faux bearskin Wilma Flintsone ensemble complete w/a large spear and hunting u round the house!U say that b-day is tonite:)?????
I've been try to convince my wife that my bithday is cancelled next year since I'll be 40! Do poohbears live to be that old ibizzy? ha ha I hear hunting season is coming up soon!
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I feel real concerned for you and your kids. I certainly understand addiction since I was an alcohlic for 20 years. I notice your 38, when I was 38 the craziest thing happened! After all those years of drinking on 03-23-10 I was diagnosed with end stage cirrhosis! Well that sure gave my a** the motivation I needed to quit! If your kids aren't motivation enough then what else do you need? Cirrhosis?
Heidi it's time for you to get this taken care of. My friends in the above posts have told you what to do. Do it and you won't regret it! Don't do it and well who knows.. Your not just doing this for yourself ya know. Your kids need you too! It's not fair to them their Mom is an alcoholic. Think about how that impacts their lives and as they grow older what they are going to have to say about it.
Make the first step, you'll feel so good about yourself that it might actually make this whole thing easier and less comlicated. I wish the very best for you and your kids.
Randy