Kristellk,
I don't normally give pause to considerr what others might think of what I have to say, but, I have to say, in this case I did...You see, I'm proud to say today is my 117th day of sobriety, they haven't all been easy, as a matter of fact, there've been a bunch I'd like to do over (I don't much like the one's where I sound like a whiney byach), but the fact is I've done them. I've never gone to a meeting. I've never read a book. I don't believe in God. I don't fault any of these wonderful people for any of their beliefs, on the contrary, I think they are just that, wonderful. The fact that they are convicted in their beliefs actually gives me hope, just because theirs are different than mine, doesnt make me no never mind. What it comes down to, for me anyway, is you have to believe in you. There are no excuses. You are the only excuse. Are you worth it? I know I am. I think you will find that you are too. You can do it. If you take a look at some of my posts you'll see that I have issues, I mean, we all have issues, I just have more than most. If I can figure it out you most certainly can. There are alot of good people here who will help you if you'll let them.
It is better to go to meetings and talk with the other recovering alcoholics about the troubles you run in to trying to stay sober they understand. Just take what helps you and leave the rest in the rooms. God grant me the serenity to except the things that I cannot change the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to no the difference.
"there is no power greater than that of a recovering alcoholic/addict helping another one"wise old saying"......u won't find it sitting alone looking at this screen pecking away in cyberland...haul urself to a meeting....keep an open mind...and don't compare urself outta the room!:)
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