Need help ready to stop

[tribalhope]

I am an alchoholic and am ready to stop the problems is I am having some withdrawals happening.  I drink everyday and my drink of choice is rum.  I still make it to work and take care of responsibilities n have used this to justify that it isn't a problems but the withdrawal have begun recently after a heavy bout or not drinking enough (this is a new phenomena)  I am completely ashamed of it & I should know better since my brother who was two years older than me died from drinking in my arms a few years ago.  I am tired scared since recently I have experieinced tremors, high blood pressure and heart palpatations.  I have two young children and can't imagine not being there for them. My husband just got out of jail for dui and has firmly decided he's done drinking and if I'm not were done.  so its a variety of things that have lead me to confront my addiction, mainly the physical symptoms.  Last nite I couldn't sleep I was sweating, heart racing and tremors I had only drank 3 beers instead of my usual pint.  I was very shocked and scared that my attempt to lower my intake turned out so badly.  I had to get up and drink some rum so I could sleep and that is really bad!!  I have everything else going for me in my life and this is pretty much my only downfall.  I am ready to quite and am soo ashamed I have hide this from my family friends and co workers for so long and altho I thought I was pretty sly I am beginning to notice that I'm not fooling anyone.  I just want some spupport and not be be further critisized and humiliated for my failure.  I pray everynite that I can conquer this I can't hurt my children anymore.  

[authrjenn]

Tribal hope; First of all your a hero in my book. My mother drank till she was 62 and died from everything you can think of. She stole my childhood and beat me daily.I don't drink because of her. That was the only miracle I got from her addiction.I am 59 and still feel robbed, cheated, and resentful for her drinking. I have been to counseling and I am a certified counselor myself. Still the scars run deep.Your showing great courage for admitting that you have a problem. You are not obligated to tell the world you have a problem. Your obligation is to you and yours only. Get to a specialist, AA daily and a doctor who can detox you(psychologist) the correct way. Not with the old fashioned way with meds that make you deathly ill if you drink . Weaning yourself  could work, but they have better meds to keep you from dying and throwing up and shaking  to death..Sometime employers have insurance policies that will pay for your rehab, but only one time. If your serious, and it sounds like your life depends on it, seek help today! Call AA, check out your insurance and look for a good rehab program. Best of luck. and let me know how your doing. I don't know you but my heart goes out to you and yours. Congrats for the courage to try.
Brooke

[Dooley1947]

If the tremors are still continuing, definitely see a doctor.  Is there any problem with insurance or expense of medical care?  Does your husband know that you are trying to quit?  It is important to talk to him, if you can.  

[Jacker]

Are you advertising your services here? This is a support site- not an advertising medium.  

[surfin]

We all come to this site for support, and the reason we're here is to support you!  We need you to stay sober to keep us sober.

Change is difficult, but possible.  I couldn't see the dawn at all for weeks, but I kept fighting the disease.  Not for my family, but for myself.  That is key.

AA meetings are vital to alcoholics like me, without them I staid sober for a while but I was often desperately miserable without even realizing it.

Good luck, an unbelievable transformation awaits you if you trust that the hardest decisions are the best for you and those surrounding you.  After you recover, you'll understand and love yourself again

[narla]

Congratulations on coming to a decision that will save your life,as Jacker said you need to see a doctor ASAP they can help you cope with the withdrawals,also once you have detoxed you will need aftercare,this can be through AA or an addiction specialist,but believe me aftercare is the most important thing,getting sober is easy compared with staying sober,you have to work at it.Good Luck

Denise

[Jacker]

First off, I'd like to recommend that you see a doctor IMMEDIATELY!  Tremors are nothing to mess around with if you are having serious withdrawals.  Your doctor can help you through this, and if you want to be there for your kids then you need to take care of yourself. PLEASE, PLEASE GO SEE A DOCTOR.  

We all feel ashamed when the jig is up and we finally realize that we can no longer hide it, but alcoholism is more common then you think, and there's no reason to be ashamed. The fact is, you have a problem and you''re dealing with it.  There's nothing as inspiring as a person who overcomes a problem like this.  Just get yourself sober and then start a program that will teach you how to live sober.  

First things first though.....go to a doctor and get some help with the detox, okay?