Worried about Liver and heart

[chan_1991_]

I don't know whether I have any specific questions. Im just really worried and need to rant about it and some opinions would be nice.

I am 22 years old and seem to have a problem with alcohol. I can't seem to stop at one drink and usually end up downing drinks just to feel drunk effects. And crazy amounts too. Ive seemed to develop a high tolerance.
It's only been happening for a year but I used to get plastered about 4 or 5 times a week. Over 30 units probably and one time I didn't stop drinking vodka for the whole day.
I started to get very conscious about this and aware about my liver health, but not really enough. I just went to a doctor and discussed my concerns. I got a blood test which shown one of my enzymes was too high, so Im guessing this is fatty liver? or maybe worse. This was about 4 months ago. He just said they will go down when I stop drinking and didn't seem bothered and didn't suggest further tests.
Since then Ive not been able to control myself, I still binge drink excessively but its not everyday or anything. Only when on holiday I do end up going too far.

Well the other night I ended up drinking 3 bottles of wine in the space of 4 hours, I was very intoxicated and was totally out of control. I can't remember the night but apparently I was in a bad state. Im worried about the permanent damage that will occur. I went out with the intention of just having one, but one had no effect & now I realise I just can't do it anymore and will never drink again. Im just really praying that I haven't caused permanent damage from it all. Im so ashamed.

My heart was also racing and racing at an alarmingly fast pace, but I didn't care at the time because I was in such a state. Im really concerned that Ive caused damage to my heart as well, I worry I may have been too intoxicated to know if a minor heart attack occurred or some kind of heart disease.
I don't feel well but I never have.
I have checked my heart rate and it's quite low but i am really unfit , don't exercise and have been panicking all night. so it should be higher

I don't have any symptoms that indicate liver disease, but there are no symptoms til it's too late. I do have really dry skin and feel weak all the time along with breathing problems Ive been getting fobbed off with for years. Im praying to god I don't have cirhosis but it's not looking good & I wouldn't be surprised if I did have scarring, I feel its impossible that I don't have now and see no hope.
Going to the gp and tests costs a lot of money, so I am kind of waiting to be free of drink for a while and then get some tests. But Im very concerned about it all.

I used to be able to go out and have a couple of drinks and now Im just left with such a high tolerance that I can't have fun now without destroying my health.

[gyspy09]

He'll ya went thru withdrawal most brutal thing ever thought I was dying n which u can die from alcohol w/d. last 5 days.. I have been sober 33 days today!  N I've been checked out of ever bar possible hit cops I have a domestic violence charge for beating my X up. I'm currently in mental health court. For a yr or I go to jail.   I'm doubting u have anything wrong.  If u think u have something n keep thinking it you'll actually feel like u are hurting.  But I would get tested again just to make sure I do wish u luck but will b one of the hardest things u do. Try to go to sum AA meetings there really good n the ppl can help u!

[chan_1991_]

I have hit rock bottom, because of my drinking Ive been arrested twice, lost my boyfriend to the point he would never speak to me again and hasn't in about 5 months! and Ive been banned from the most bars in my small town for hurling abuse at bar staff for not serving me at closing time.
Embarrassed myself a lot with various things. none of it has ever been enough to make me stop. It's just the concern for my health. I will get tested after a month . I just hope to god I don't have heart disease or liver disease from all the excessive binge drinking.

I know what it's like. good for you for wanting to change. good for us. I wish you luck. you have strength to keep away. did you get any withdrawal symptoms? and how long have you been sober for?

[gyspy09]

Well I would quit wait a month n go get tested again I get thoe as much as I felt like **** I'd continue to drink.  It is very hard not to n it's everywhere...  but you just have to do it if u fully want it bc if u don't truly want to stop nothing or no one will make u trust me I quit for me bc I'm a mean drunk n I Alright lost my hubby n kid once n I have them back I'm not ganna risk drinking n losing them again. Maybe u need to hit rock bottom sounds like u havnt yet

[gyspy09]

No I don't.  I don't know how much 12 units is but I use to drink over a litter a day or 30+ beer's.  N I understand I'm around ppl that drink non stop n ask if I want sum but u just need to stay strong n stand ur ground. If u don't wanna drink don't specially if it hurt u just tell them your good but they can do whatever they want. N if ur worried bout ur health I wouldn't drink every body is different do what is right for u only they say being sober is to b selfish bc u need to only worry bout ur self n no one else good luck

[chan_1991_]

I think I may have cirrhosis tho . my stomach is bloated, i itch sometimes, and in a blood test a liver enzyme was raised and I binge drank loads after that still. its weird , despite how worried i am about it, i drink loads to cope and it makes things worse. :S I make a very conscious effort now, but there are times when I go out of control. just not everyday but I think the binge drinking I do in a night is worse than drinking a couple of beers everyday.

I am shocked at people with cirrhosis who only had 6 beers a day. 6 beers would not even make me tipsy :(

[chan_1991_]

Do you have liver disease at 23?
I have such a high tolerance, I drink way over 12 units when I drink it's ridiculous :(
i need to stop. i will not drink. i just feel i can't have a good time without it and I went out with my friends for a festival at the weekend and they kept pressuring me to have a few drinks. :(

[gyspy09]

Also that is what drinking does destroys your body if only a yr every body is different I've been drinking 14 almost 15 yrs and I'm only 23 n I'm telling u my liver kills me so

[TTinKKerBBell]

P.S.
Alcohol is an addictive substance and, as with all addictions, tolerance is a HUGE sign of addiction.  

We initially drink for the 'buzz' but because of 'tolerance' it comes to pass that we need more and more alcohol to attain that buzz, eventually the buzz is un attainable but in our quest, we become addicted to the 'substance'.

Alcohol is a poison.  The more we drink, the longer we drink, the more damage we do to our entire system.

My Hope Is That You Are DONE With Alcohol

[TTinKKerBBell]

Don't take that 'first' drink

"one is too many !! , 'cuz one is never enough" !! !! !!

Good Luck