today i am reminding myself to live in gratitude. The holiday has for me much attached to it that could trigger anxiety. While I did have some moments that could have potentially caused me grief, i reminded myself to focus on the real and try to stay in the now I actually found myself enjoying it!! The story that caused the PTSD at this time of year was no longer important. I can't change the past events, thinking and dwelling on them won't change what was so I just let them float around in my mind without fight and chose to enjoy the days. I have to say that was the best Thanksgiving in years. I am so grateful to finally understand that I choose where to focus my attention. I had heard the words for years but never really understood. I much prefer this living in calm gratitude to endless suffering. It has been years of dealing with agorophobia anxiety and depression, i guess there was a purpose for the suffering that i may never understand so i choose to be grateful for the gift of today, hopeful of tomorrows, and accepting of the yesterdays. I hope you all are on your journey to peace as well :)