Hello,
So since December I noticed a change in myself that has been worrying me. At the beginning of December, I was treated for gonorrhea, and that same week my dad lost his job and got me and my family kicked out of our house. On top of that my parents have been nastily divorced for a year. I am 20 years old in college and I was in school when all this happened, and it was finals week when all this went on. When I got "home" I moved in with my grandparents. While there I was also treated for BV and the medicine (flagyl) that was given to me messed up my stomach and that was treated too. But on top of all of this my anxiety has been incredibly high, I cannot eat and find myself nauseous often as well as some abdominal pain. I wake up in the morning sometimes with my heart racing and, also have some shortness in breath. I have struggled with some heightened acid reflux with this as well. My biggest anxieties while home for winter break were my broken family (i am close with my three brothers), and I have started to come to terms with a sexual abuse encounter that happened when I was a child, and thirdly I was terrified I had HIV, although that fear has passed although I am a huge hypochondriac. My skin has also become incredibly sensitive with red blotches on my shoulders after showering and I have gotten some canker sores in my mouth. My boyfriend has blocked many medical websites for me to stop googling things as well. I just don't know what is wrong with me, I've been to so many doctors who have told me that I am okay, and blame acid reflux and anxiety. I started seeing a therapist at school because of issues with my family but I can only meet with her once every two weeks. I actually just sit here crying because I have lost weight and have never been so hyper aware of my body and negative thoughts. I just find myself checking every little thing and I just can not grasp I am okay. I am sorry this post is everywhere, I am brain dumping everything. Any response is appreciated and if anyone has tips to help me out I would be so grateful. I am just weirded mostly by how unlike myself I have become and I just want to get better.
Thank You