feeling sucisidal due to anxiety

[barnetarmy]

im a 27 year old male i used to use cocaine quite alot but have stopped now for about 6 or 7 months.one morning after using it i could hardly breathe felt really hot and just kept walking around looking at myself in the mirror constantly until the ambulance arrived,the way i felt as if i was having a heart attack but i had an ecg and there conclusion was a panic/anxiety attack.since then i have had constant chest pains,tingling in arms,headaches,ibs,dizzyness,nausea,anger but all these have come on in stages and everytime some new pain or funny feeling occurs im convinced im going to die.i have called the ambulance out on several occasions and they have performed several ecgs and nothing abnormal has showed up,for a while i was coping with my anxiety with zolotoft (sertraline)but one day i felt really weird hot flushes and skipping heartbeats and slight chestpain the paramedics came i had an ecg and there was an irregular heartbeat found so this knocked me for six,while in hospital they kept me ont the ecg for about half hour and everything was fine it was due to the medication.my doctor says there is nothing to worry about but im convinced that somethings going to happen,the last couple of days have been horrible i split from my g/f of 5 years and today i had 12 powerful tablets in my hand ready to swallow i just fill i should be out of it and out of everyones way,im just asking somone to please please please help me if u have had any of these feelings thank you so much

[geekgrl74]

I have had the same types of feelings.  Often times when i would have an anxiety attack I would think I was dying or having a heart attack.  I even had the tests and was on a heart monitor for 24 hrs and guess what?  You probably guessed it, they said everything was normal.  I do get extremely fast heartbeats at times but this is also caused by my excessive worry.  Anxiety disorder is a funny thing because it can cause a cycle of having an attack then you worry about the attack which makes you feel sick and then you worry that you are feeling sick and that causes an attack and round and round we go lol.  I also have a hypochondria where I think I have all these different things wrong with me and they never could find anything.  This is normal with this type of anxiety.  I have also had thoughts of suicide but I have also been diagnosed as bipolar then with clinical depression after I had 2 nervous breakdowns and found the right balance of meds I am at a point of just ok.  If you know what I mean.  I think with proper counseling and talk therapy, it may not cure you, but they can help you better understand what is going on and why and teach you some coping skills if you do feel another attack coming on.  Please do not kill yourself.  There are too many other options out there that you could try if one doesn't work try another.  It took me many different things before I found something that has me at an ok level.  What also helped me was accepting that I have this and it's something that I was born with and it is not something that makes you any less of a person.  Please try to be patient and trust me, it does get better.

[barnetarmy]

thank you enough i mean my head is everywhere

[barnetarmy]

i used for about 7or 8 years not all the time though.i have got drummed into my head that as soon as get missing heartbeat chest pain and all the other symptons i automatically think heart attack straight away do u have irregular heartbeat aswell.i was so close to taking the pills i was in tears for about two three hours.its horrible feeling like this have become obsessed that something is wrong.thanx so much for replying i just had to see someelse say they have the same problems i cant thank you

[mama23babies]

I have had all of these feelings that you describe and yes, I have anxiety and panic attacks. These are common symptoms of the disorder.If you are feeling suicidal you need to get help right away. As for me feeling sucidal with my anxiety. I have thoughts yes,but it's more of a fear of suicide. I know that I don't want to die,but wonder "what if I go crazy and lose control and kill myself" Please seek help if these feelings don't go away,but know that you are not crazy and that we have all experienced probably everyone of the symptoms you have described and more for alot of us. Anxiety is very hard,but can be managed.By the way,my anxiety disorder got out of hand after quitting a hyrdrocodone addiction so maybe the cocaine had something to do with it. How long did you use?