Anxiety over thinking about existence

[Pennyalexis]

It seems like the most unreasonable fear of all, but I have severe anxiety over reality and how random our existence on this planet is. I will be having a wonderful day, and all of the sudden, I'll notice how strange humans look...I don't know how to describe it... Everything just looks foreign, even humans and I feel like I'm not even in a real reality. I feel like I'm living in an alien universe, like in a video game and all of my life occurrences are part of a game that is just going to beunplugged. I'm rambling, but I feel so detached from the real world! It's messing up my entire life and I feel alone... Help!! I feel like an outsider in my own perspective!!!

[cocololoco]

Glad to have found people with similar anxieties to me.  When I see a person from behind I imagine what is inside their head.  it's like I don't believe there's a brain inside but a robot controlling people's actions.  It's terrifying and I don't know how to make it stop!!!

[Mozxanax]

I know what you mean...I also see colors like anatomy when I look at people., hyper aware of people's anatomy.

[shidabug97]

same with me like ill just be sitting there & the thought comes in mind & i just question like am i really real ? is this world real ? & soemtimes i wuestion if humans are real its just annoying because i feel like a robot sometimes

[Pennyalexis]

Yes, exactly! I can't stand looking at my father and mother seeing them as blank robotic sort of bodies... I've had anxiety disorder for my whole life, since I was about 4 years old. I went to a mental hospital a few months ago, but I thought I've been recovering really well... It's been a horrible mess, having this disorder takes a lot away from me. :(

[edgyboy]

Been there many times and it ***** looking at your loved ones as part of that sphere. I think what is happenning is derealization/depersonalization. Have you had anxiety or panic attacks before?