Can anyone please relate to me as i'm really scared out of my wits about the way i feel. I have been to the doctors and they have perscribed me beta blockers but they only take the edge off how i feel...this is just turning into a living nightmare and i want to go back to being how i was...which was outgoing and bubbly, everyday am feeling worse.
The doctor told me i had a Generalized Anxiety Disorder.....but how i feel cannot be all to down to anxiety..or can it??
I have had panic attacks on and off for a few year now....they would last anywhere from a few seconds to ten minutes then the feeling would pass, but these last few months have been living hell.
In March this year my gran died and i also had to have my daughter moved schools as she was getting bullied really badly....5 weeks after my gran passed i thought i had Vertigo......i would literally get out of bed and my legs would be like jelly and i couldnt focus or barely make it to the toilet...spent nearly a week in bed before i eventually plucked up the courage to go to the doc's, they gave me beta blockers and betahastimine for my vertigo....still not sure if i have vertigo or if this is a symtom of my anxiety. A combination of these tablets r making me feel sick and have horrendous heartburn.
I have constant fears that i have a deadly disease, panic about not seeing the future ie:-my daughter grow up/getting married/grankids/xmas's. If my parnter is running 10 mins late i panic thinking something had happened to him, if my daughter is out playing am constantly ringing her to if she's ok, espcially if i here an ambulance.
I use to shake, get severe diahorrea, fell like i was going to die....but my most recent concern is my internal shaking which seems to be with me 24/7......as soon as i stand up i am shaking inside but no-one else can see, my muscle's r aching and feel like i've done a workout, i find it a struggle to walk and even and effort to lift an arm, sometimes i feel weak but i did notice today sitting in the car i am soooo tense all the time and i didnt even realise it till today....could this be why i'm aching and muscles hurt....i am getting around 3/4hrs sleep a night because i fall asleep and jump upright in bed having an attack, shaking, crying hysterically because i cannot catch my breath.
I am at the end of my teather and just want this to stop and feel normal again....this is a living nightmare.....does this happen to anyone else....my main concern is to why i'm shaking all the time because as the days r going by i'm convincing myself that i have m.s????
Any advice would be appreciated because beta blockers just dont seem to be working at all xx