hi
i have been ill for nearly a year, i wasn't going to speak about this, but after seeing the amount of people sharing their experiences, so i would like to share mines and see what you think. i am from uk in my early 30's
i was made redundant last year in febuary from a job, but i don't think this truely added to my stress in anyway as i was planning to leave work soon, anyways a few weeks later, my grandads brother had a stroke and lost the ability to speak and walk and a few days later he past away.
a week after this i woke up with tingling sensations in my arms and face, with breathlesness, dizzyness i was certain i was having a stroke (this was in summer last year). this is when all my problems began, i was constanly out of breath, weak lethargic, felt like i was about to faint. I did go drs who did a few blood tests and said it was depression. i was in and out of A&E for dizzyness they would say i may be comming down with a flu, they blamed it on it possibly being bird flu as there was a high number of people in my area who had it. At this point i began to feel a feeling of brainfog, symtoms of depersonalization, tingling sensations in my face and arms, i began to get symptoms of sinus infection was placed on antibiotics, i spent alot of time using the internet as drs were not helping so i would look for help with my symptoms. my blood pressure became low and heart rate increased also i fainted once and my sugar levels were very low, i believe i wasn't eating too wel.
I was called in to the drs a few weeks later and was told that my liver function test has been slightly abnormal but when checked on the record it has been out for many years and i was never informed of this before, any ways this is where i put 2 and 2 together and i began to think i am having hepatic encephalopathy, which would explain the brainfog and altered feeling of conciousness. so it added to my stress to find out my liver wasn't doing wel.
This does sound crazy, my family were so worried to the extreme that they spoke to spiritual/religious people, who diagnosed me as having some kind of magic attached to me, apparently it was removed from me, yet no cure.
i wont go into it further but for nearly a year i stil have the same mental feelings, im not all here and im in a dream world, i had eye inflamation for a few months, which included photophobia,eye pain, finally i was on steroids (from a MD) which fixed my inflamation leaving me with eye floaters, a constant reminder that somthing had gone wrong with me. for my hypochondriac side, i kept a diary of a list of diseases, illnesses i could be having, i would also note the day and how i felt and cross out illnesses/diseases which i have checked for.
after all these months comming to a year (positives)
i dont get breathlesness as once i did, no more fainting, not much nausia, no one sided headaches or sinus pains, eye inflamation has gone, my weakness is stil there but not as weak as i once was.
i still get weird tingling feeling in my arms but mainly on the sinus areas (i have noticed when i become more of a hypochondriac i get more of these, so i only ge them maybe once a week or less)
i am left with (negatives, as in changes due to being ill)
eye floaters (probably due to inflamation)
palptations,
lower blood pressure,
lower heart rate,
i have lost 2 stones.
i still feel as if my minds going crazy, as if my blood is toxic causing me to feel dizzy and half drunk. brainfog, depersonalization,altered feeling of conciouness, living in a dream world
very weak,
i have had alot of gastritis and had been checked for gastrititis i also have ulcers in my deodenum, so i am working on getting this sorted with a GI specialist.
My liver is still under question and is being looked at soon.
i am keeping strong, it's just hard as i had so much planned and its all gone down hill lol. i just want to share my experience, i know most of my problems are self inflicted due to stress/ thinking. but i also beileve some illnesses are like a bomb waiting for a trigger to lite it up.the mind is soo powerful.
in my religion they say,
"God is the best of planners" mans plan can change, but gods plan is surely a plan that will remain, as thats Gods wil.
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