PLEASE HELP ME!! I need the opinion of someone professional on this site! I am a 18-years-old girl and since I was 16 I had an anxiety disorder,I was costantly obsessing over psychotic illnesses and going crazy.. I was always in fear. But now I can't tell what's happening, I am no longer scared about psychotic illnesses (maybe because I rationally can tell it would be impossible to me to get one) but now it's like I am obsessing that something may be wrong with ME, with my personality, with my perceiving and my inner self!! Everyone tries to tell me I'm fine and that I'm just anxious but I can't shake that feeling. Often I obsess and feel like no matter how hard I try to be open and tell what's inside,I feel like there's something about me that is dark and wrong and no one knows!! This drives me ABSOLUTELY FRIGHTENED!! Because it's not a feeling you get from intrusive thoughts, I feel like I am truly weird because I always have been self-centered and daydreaming, like I was not interested in what was going on around me and with ppl around me.. I even fear I don't truly care about my loved ones and I obsess thinking that even If I cry or have happy times with them, I don't actually love them deep down.. I don't want this, only formulating such a thing makes me frightened and overly anxious.. I often lead myself to think more concretely (even because I mostly ruminate over what may be wrong with me and "daydream" to escapee this) but when I do I get this unpleasing feeling I am just forcing.. thay maybe that isn't truly me.. I don't want this, I don't want to cause such a sorrow in my parents and friends, I don't want to feel this trapped.. I costantly want to be reassured and hear that nothing is wrong with me but yet I can't shake this horrible feeling :( I truly only hope that I suffer from just anxiety and that I am a regular girl, because I truly want be one. Please, tell me what you think about this