somebody help! Let me get rid of the fear of HIV

[blackmonitor]

Nightmares waked me up every night. Crying and feeling holpless, I could not get rid of the fear of HIV. I was so silly that I let a CSW give me a handjob.I touched her vagina for a second and we had a french kiss for a minute.That is all and the doctor told me not to worry about it since it is no risk at all.But how could I get myself out of the imagnation? Maybe her fluid get in my penis , Maybe there is cut on her hand,Maybe the kiss is deadly dangerous.I am a man that my whole family count on. From the begining, I have never let them done. Excellent student in the college, Straight A. But I made a huge mistake that I  did this humiliating thing! If I happend to get HIV through this. I have nothing to do but suicide. I can not tell my family , I can not tell any one I know. Thank God this form is my last chance.Please , somebody help me . bring me back to my normal life. Let me get rid of this fear and anxity!

[RubyWitch]

Being a straight A student in college, I'm a little surprised you aren't better educated about the transmission of HIV.

Three are 3 ways that you can contract HIV:

1) Having UNPROTECTED vaginal/anal intercourse with an HIV+ partner
2) Sharing drug works (needles) with an HIV+ person
3) HIV+ pregnant woman to her unborn child

If you do not fall into any of these categories, YOU HAD NO RISK! Forget all your "what if" questions about cuts on your hands or fluids on your penis or French kissing or touching her vagina...........NO RISK
HIV is a very fragile virus and must be transmitted inside the human body. Exposure to air or saliva will almost instantly kill the virus.
Which is also why you can't "catch" it from environmental surfaces such as door knobs, toilet seats, eating utensils, telephones..............
But HIV/AIDS education will teach you all this and much more which will put your mind at ease. Knowledge IS power.
Peace
Greenlydia

[miraccle]

Don't worry I have had the same fears but its not worth it It doesn't work this way getting infected.I have had nightmares as well but now I have real anxiety problem and I figured out that all this worrying made my anxiety.Get some lorazepam at night before going to bad.I am against pills  but sometimes you have to do the necessary,Cause you definitely have some kind of anxiety.  

[cheshchesh819]

what is a CSW i am dull with letters like that,please calm down you have no worries what so ever there was no intercourse involved,so there is not a chance you have caught anything from her,you sounds like the sort of person who the world relies on,give yourself a break before you has a breakdown,as for these suicidle thoughts you need to go and speakto your doctor about it,you sounds like you could be suffering anxiety.