Anyone relate?...

[Mozxanax]

I really need help or someone that maybe relates. I've had disabling anxiety and mental issues most of life. I've been through he'll and along the way been judged, put down, laughed at..the list goes on. I have issues with anger as a result. I tend to try to please people and inspire of my illness I've pushed myself to help people when I can. They come to expect it, but if I back off i don't get kept in touch with...mo one ever calls to ask if 'm doing ok or if maybe I need help with anything. When I've opened up yo people about how my disorder they either don't believe it, judge me more, or use the trust I gave against me later in the way of jibes or manipulation. I feel guilty about everything and have vented to people about those that have hurt or angered me. That of course backfires and I end up having to cover up things I've said. I grew up in a home where it wasn't really ok to show anger even in a healthy way. I feel likensometimes if I keep up the pattern of putting up with the same treatment and I don't say exactly what I think I'll explode. Even without a mental illness, I have found many people have little room to judge.

[Mozxanax]

I appreciate your kind thoughts. I hope your son continues to improve. Thank you for the supplement advice as well. I tend not to do things I've heard may be helpful...there's so much out there I get overwhelmed with the information. I've been in therapy but it's difficult to be cognitive with me, I hear it, it makes sense but then it doesn't stick. also, medication has been a long road of little effect that's helpful. The time you took to help means a lot. And the prayers..thank you. I hope I'm not just a mean spirited person...sometimes I feel that I'm tender hearted and then again I can feel so hateful and vindictive. I think I've been angry my whole life and I'm 52. Didn't know what a panic attack was until I was 26 when we started hearing about it in the media. Instead of this knowledge and the fact that I wasn't the only one having them being a saving grace, I think my mind and body had been through it so long that It didn't open that door for me. I know this sounds like a list of excuses and self pity but I need to vent.

[Dolphinleiker]

I can relate in some ways I too am a people pleaser it's like first nature to me. My family judges me to and it's like I'm not allowed to feel any emotions because its their turn to feel. I think family at time can be a little overrated  I know my family is. I have not spoken to my father in over a year because of similar issues. Which cause my anxiety to increase immensely and my depression to worsen it ***** i tell you. Being judged I think is the crappiest cause they are looking at you when they should've looking at themselves. Sorry just venting a little I'm sorry. But yes I can understand where your coming from its not right that they put you through that. You might want to look Into therapy I have been or was in therapy and it helped a lot. You need to talk to someone who is there just for you and is non-biased. I hope this helps good luck and God bless.

[Nighthawk61]

I'm sorry that you're feeling unsupported. My son has disabling anxiety and getting off anti depressants because of side effects, be started taking CoQ10 and magnesium, and , honestly, he's a changed man, at school, work and at home. Maybe give it a try? You haven't mentioned if you've tried any therapy, or coping tools for your anxiety. It's important to be able to talk about what's bothering, and hopefully you can learn to express yourself without anger. Some people are thoughtless and need constructive communication, to understand that they have not been as compassionate as they should. There are also some people that are beneath you, and would not benefit by your communication, so  don't go wasting your time getting angry with people that are simply not worth it. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. If you need to talk, please feel free to reach out by private message. You're in my prayers.