Not anxious so why the pain?

[goodeys]

Hi Guys,
Been a while since i've posted but for those that know my story I still have the pain. I JUst cannot understand it. I have had a good day today and i swear to god that i do not feel anxious yet I still have the chest pain just over my heart and I still have a pulse over 100bpm whilst resting. I just canot understand it, I have accepted the fact that my pain and pulse is anxiety and the majority of the time I do not feel anxious so why I am continiuing to to experience the symptoms. This makes me doubt that it is anxiety and that it could be a 'real' physical problem which in turn in the end makes me feel anxious again. I just do not get it? Will the pain ever go/ Will my pulse ever slow? Will i ever be normal again? Is there a chance that they could've missed my physical problem despite the fact that I hace had 4 echos, 2 abdominal ultrasounds, 2 chest CTs with contrast, 1 abdominal CT, 1 endoscopy, 100 ecgs (estimate but sure that it is under estimated, was in hospital for 5 weeks and had at least one per day), lumber pucture and my blood has been tested for everything.

Please help me figure this out guys, I really am struggling.

Sam xxxx

[TerraC]

First and foremost, please remember that you are not alone! There are thousands out there just like you going through the exact same thing.  It's difficult to realize how important it is to stay positive for your own sake as well as your family's.  I hate what's wrong with us too, but I am thankful to be alive - there are many things out there that people are struggling with that is worse than what we have.  Have faith in yourself and be strong.  We are here for you!


xoxo

[goodeys]

Oh Jo,
You made me cry. I hate feeling so alone all of the time. Can't you move nearer. Oh, my tears taste salty. I hate whats wrong with us and I so wish that we were closer. I so need someone like you within touching distance. I just do not understand anything.

xxx

[scaredjo]

hello i caught you!!!! well as you said to me (re-read your post) the doubt is in the brain and SURELY, SURELY every single one of your tests couldn be wrong, its impossible.
i had therapy today and like you the tests are good BUT its our brains that are wrong, i have had pains etc all week but were still living, still breathing which surely must prove that we really are ok, sam you are looking after your baby, eating, sleeping that means your alive
i hate being this way and i hate it even more that lovely people like you and me and the rest of the community feel this way but its our way of life and slowly but surely we will get better we just need to have faith in ourselves and the doctors

listen me???!!!!!!!
lol i wish you happiness xx