Thank you for you reply. I am going to see my first psych in a long time on Weds morning. In the mean time I am staying the meds. As for your comments regarding the HIV Prevention Community, I am sure they are going with the best information that I can provide and at the end of the day - you just don't know until you do all the tests. I am struggling to really pull the whole picture together for me, second guessing the whole episode - did sex worker place the condom, was correct, did it fail -- it's anyone's guess at this point). That's one part of my anxiety. The other part is living with and yet not knowing what my situation actually is -- i have never, never imagined being sick where my armpits hurt. Sure I have imagined having HIV with the headaches, stomach issues, nausea, etc. But the pain under the armpits has my worried -- which is forcing me to replay this bad drama over and over in the hope that it will go away.. And the third part is having to tell my fiance about this (which I did last night) -- knowing that I may have not just emotionally, but physically harmed her as well. For me this an awful lot to bear. My relatives as has my finance have told me not to dwell on this and that next week will be here soon enough (figure of speech). For me this has been horrible experience (unfortunately one that I have repeated through the years through my lack of alcohol control). AD's could help but really to me are nothing more than alcohol, an escape valve instead of learning to deal and cope.
Hello and welcome. No worries, you didn't break any rules!
If you were told you had no risk on the HIV Prevention Community, you can take that to the bank.
As for anxiety...anxiety manifests is many ways causing many physical symptoms. Once you can manage to get your anxiety under control, those anxiety related symptoms will resolve.
As for medications, the most optimal way to treat anxiety and depression for the long term IS by using antidepressants. If you didn't like the way Paxil made you feel, you can ask your doc to try you on another med. Remember, you must give these meds 4-6 weeks to do their thing before you can judge whether or not the med is going to work for you.
I would also recommend therapy to help you work through your fears and learn ways to cope with anxiety.
Best of luck..let us know how it is going!