I'm just curious to see if anyone else is like me. My panic is under control now without drugs, but when I was sick early this year, they lasted atleast a few hours. Sometimes it lasted days or weeks. I've never had an acute short panic attack. The severe attacks could only be stopped with intravenous Ativan, and even after that my mind was calm or I was tranquilized, but my heart often didn't stop racing and blood pressure stayed very high.
Heart and blood pressure is ok most of the time now. I've had no other experiences like these attacks. I'd rather break all my bones then go through one of those again. Attacks were worse than my bone breaks and complete shoulder separation. Heart rate was sometimes 200+. They really felt like a near death experience.
I can't get to sleep right now, and I was just thinking how well I am doing now compared to just a few months ago. I am by no means recovered, and still have cardiac-type symptoms along with a lot of other weird stuff. I am still stuck in bed some days, and it would be easy for me to get depressed about all this, but right now I feel very happy and fortunate. I have a strange sense of happiness and euphoria at the moment, and I feel that everything will get better soon. I've gone through so much and I'm almost there!