I feel like I'm losing my mind

[natalie208]

I have been suffering from paranoia and anxiety for the past 3 weeks. For some reason I can't stop thinking I have HIV. I have convinced myself I have it. I get tested in a week, but I still have to test for the next 3 months. I was never at high risk that I know of. Lately every symptom I have I relate it to HIV. I've been to the doctors 4 times this week. I just feel like I'm going insane!

[natalie208]

Thank You...Oh my I'm hoping I'm negative. I'm a bit of a hypercondriac... Everyone around me says the person I was with isnt high risk, but I'm just hoping its negative! Believe me no sex for a long time!!!!! I get tested in 5 days, but its seems like eternity. Then I'm going to go get tested at 6 weeks etc... stressful!

[SkeletonsRFun]

HIV anxiety is the worst! I havent had sex in 4 yrs because Im afraid of getting something if I do. I understand how you feel. Once you get the negative results hang them up in your room where u can see it everyday. That will help the anxiety die down a little. I know for me I have to SEE that Im ok. Other than that just try to relax. Im sure youll be ok :-) *hug*

[regretit09]

did you use protection?

[natalie208]

I struggle with alcohol. Thats when I do all the stupid stuff when I'm dunk. I have been sober for 22 days and planning on it. I'm just so scared that my stupidity has caused me to get a deadly diease. I'm so scared I just feel like crying.

[cognitivekid]

i felt that same way but it wasnt about hiv it was about alcohol addiction at first i thought that i would become an alcoholic and eventually my anxiety got so bad that i thought i was going crazy but i didnt and now i panic about other things just as bad and it *****... nobody should have to go through this but at least were not alone