I'm extrmeley so afraid that I might go crazy :(

[adellao]

I've been going through a very hard time for about a month now. It feels like every day I feel a little less like myself.I don't know why this is happening. It makes me so scared  that sometimes I can't stop thinking about it and I can't stop worrying and being nervous. The anxiety didn't get really bad until last Friday.  I found online something called depersonalization and I think I might have it. I haven't been feeling like myself lately and even worse, it feels like as time passes it just gets worse and worse. I'm constantly on edge and nervous. Also I've been having violent intrusive thoughts and a lot of anxiety. I've had intrusive thoughts before, but for some reason this time I don't feel as bad this time, and that scares me even more. Is it because this is the second time I've had them?  I'm so afraid that one day I might hurt someone I love. It scare me so much! They make me question whether or not I'm crazy. Even when I almost convince myself that they are just thoughts and they're not true, I keep questioning myself like what if I really do want to do these things. And I'm so scared that I will become a psycho and want to do these things one day. It scares me so much to the point where I can't stop looking online for reassurance that these are just thoughts and they aren't true, but even when I do I still question myself. Sometimes it''s just emotionally too much to think about all at once and I just break down crying. Since Friday it hasn't been managable. I'm so scared that I'm slowly becoming a crazy pyscho person or something like that. It's been extremely stressful and scary. I'm sorry this is so long but I'm so scared. Has anybody felt something similar to this, and if so how did you get through it? I keep trying to convince myself that I'm like all the other people who have had intrusive OCD thoughts like these, but then I keep on worrying and think what if these aren't intrusive thoughts and I will want to do these things some day. :( Also my family and I are going on a trip in a few weeks  and I'm afraid that something bad will happen, and what makes it even worse is that the bill for the place we are staying for a week is six six six. Also we are staying in June which is the sixth month and it's 2016 and we will be there on the 16th. We aren't arriving on the 16th but we will be there on the 16th.I know it's just a superstition but I'm still scared. I'm scared that something bad will happen or I will do something bad. I really just want to enjoy being with my family and not worry about these things. I'm so afraid :( Please help, and I'm sorry this is so long. Thank you for taking your time to help. :)

[Sweetheart777]

I'm very afraid of 666 if I buy something and it costs that much I add something to my order. But be careful of self fulfilled prophecy. Add something to change that amount like order room service one day or purchase a movie, fears are real u can't chane the date but it's 2016 so even 6/6/16 is not like 666 so all u can do is chane ur mind and convince urself it's not the same.