so another taumatic event for me..my first love and father of my daughters passed away march 20th 2011....two weeks after this my step father who raised me had a heart attack and open heart surgery...hes well again back to healthy but during march when all this happened my anxiety and panic were at its worst..sky high...i was stuck in a whirpool of fear,anxiety,exhaustion,sadness and having to push through for my children who need a normal mommy more than ever now...more than ever. i had been using pretty much a whole 0.5 dose a zanex two to three times a day..when i woke,,when i had lunch and before sleep....just to be normal..when i used to take half a dose once a day...i finally woke up one morning in july and noticed i felt different..i started down dosing my xanax ..eventually i got to 9 days free of meds..no xanax no anxiety no panic..and i felt so good so normal.. soo me again! i was extremely happy..and then on the 10th eve i had a severe panic attack out of no where..right at bed time when i was about to doze off...and its continued day after day..and im back to a whole dose of 0.5 two to three tmes a day ..ive also started noticing i get panicky when i drive anywhere not near home..? almost afraid to go farther than a mile or so..i had not had this before..i cant even work lately..its too scary for me to think of driving to my locations? i cant go out ..i stay indoors more often..i dont lknow what to do..when i start to drive i get symptoms like ibs..and have to know im ot too far from a potty or i will panick..also...before in june i was having nautious spells,stomache pain,blurry vision and slight vertigo or twitching especaily when i woke hungry.. ...but now its changed to shortness of breath? i dont get hungry till evening..i cannot eat the same..even after 3-4 bites i get the feeling i can not draw in enough air.. i cant do too much in a short period of time i get shortness of breath or i feel like i cannot draw in a deep breath.. ...im just so tired of this..i want to be free of it al and be normal....its so hard..also my fiace has GAD and panick attacks..? could his energy be bad for me even when hes not having anxiety..and i now hear my 6 year old say things like mommy i dont feel right inside i feel all tingly when im alone..i think im giving my children anxiety as well? thats the last thing i want..i just wish i knew how to stop all this...