What's Wrong With Me?

[Gingersmaps]

Hello,

I am a 16 year old female who had a life once, but unfortunately in the past 6 months my life has been torn from me because of serious and exstreme anxiety disorder.  There have been a lot of traumatic events in my past and even now during my present life which may have cause my aniexty issues.  I have severe panic attacks that are attracted from stress, yelling, arguing, nervous and akward situations, regection, etc.  My panic attacks are not what you would call "normal" because they cause real exstreme pain throughout my body (mostly in my head, back, and neck).  They last up to several hours of pure hysteria of me yelling, screaming, and crying from the pain and suffering.  By the time the attack is over I barely can remember what had started it, or worse, I can't even remember where or who I am because of the exhaustion that occurs after.  I have been to ER three times due to these attacks. The first time they just gave me something to calm me down and didn't admit me, and it didn't help because the next day my pain was worse.  The second time they admitted me to the Phychiatric Wing for 10 days because they had no idea else where to put me, it was not a pleasent exsperience.   The Third Time I had schedualed an appointment for my back pains and got admitted to the hospital for 5 days.  In that time they took an MRI (there was nothing wrong with my brain), and also a doctor who was top of the neurological department came to see me, he determined that there was nothing wrong with my brain, by that I mean no tumors, etc.  These attacks only seem to occur now during stressful situations even of the slightest, and the pain is to the maximum.  Somehow my brain is contracting real physical pain when I start to have an attack or even feel the slightest bit stressed.  I also feel very tired, very hot (almost sweating), depressed, fatigued, etc. My therapist does not know for sure what I have, but her greatest guess is I have some kind of Exstreme Conversion Aniexty disorder.  I am a smart girl, and I plan to have a life with friends and a very bright future ahead of me.  Right now the only thing I can do is try to contol my emotions and take medicine to help, but even that doesn't help me much.  If you have an opinion about what might be wrong with me please respond to my question.....

Yours in need,

Ginger

[cupcake2684]

aww i really feel for u hun! anxiety is such an awfull thing and its hard to believe that anxiety on its own can cause such real and scary pain! ive jus started suffering in the last 6 months too its turned my world upside down! ive had ambulances called out for me and i have bin to the doctors sooo many times its embaressing! i was diagnosed really quickly and have bin seeing a cbt therapist which has helped! i get awfull physical symtoms too the anches and pains make it soo diffficult to walk or lift my head up, i shake, sweat loads,cry hysterically and the feeling of impending doom just consumes me! its soo scary how real all this can be! ur young and i hope u try not to let this effect u! i know from my own experience that u can be strong and try every option available to get better! also never b embaressed i found that being honest with people and getting them to understand my problems has helped loads! i hope u dont let this consume u sweet heart ther is light at the end of the tunnel and i wish u all the best xx

[Rich99]

"""""""There have been a lot of traumatic events in my past and even now during my present life which may have cause my aniexty issues."""""""""""

Have you atttempted to get into therapy to discuss these 'events'?     Thats probably the right place to start.

[mammo]

Hi Ginger, you do sound like a very bright girl and I think you have a great attitude!  Anxiety can cause the symptoms you describe, but if your therapist isn't or can't help you it may be time to find another one.  Because these attacks happen during times of stress, and all other causes have been ruled out, it does sound like anxiety.  Now it's time to get some serious help with this and learning how to cope better with stress.  Some of us are under more stress than others, and learning how to think differently about it will help you to cope better during stressful times.  You're young with a big life ahead of you and I don't want you to miss a second of it, so know you can get better and move on knowing that you will be a stronger, wiser person for all you've endured.  Try to concentrate on things you can do something about, if there are things that you can't then just accept that and make the best of it.  Some things just happen and we don't know why, so it's important that we at least learn from them. Learning how to cope now will ensure you have a happier, less stressful life ahead.  Stay strong and keep that awesome attitude, it's everything!!!  Take care......