Wow! Your life ***** and I can certainly understand why you'd be pissed off that in 17 YEARS not one single person has recommended that you get your butt into some heavy duty therapy. You mention a hundred different medical tests, trips to the ER where "everybody knows your name," ambulance rides, on and on..........but there is no mention of any therapy. You have what I would describe, in my totally non-medical opinion, a MASSIVE case of panic disorder. I can so easily relate to all your symptoms. I have PTSD and severe panic disorder and it took YEARS for anyone to give me that DX. I too was 13 when my panic began and I was nearly 30 when I finally met a doctor who recognized my symptoms, gave them a name and put me on the the road to recovery. I'd gotten really sick and tired of being told I was a "nervous nellie," or an "anxious annie," and worst of all, a silly hypochondriac! How bloody insulting.
I had begun to believe I was going insane since my symptoms were very real, but nobody believed me either.
I hope that this specialist at the CC will get to the bottom of what is going on with you. And even if, after all the tests, you wind up with a DX of anxiety/panic, then they can get you on the correct meds and into therapy and you can begin to get on with your life.....but like me, you will never get all the years back wasted in suffering and fear. I'm 58 now and the past 28 years have been good...........but without the correct treatment, the right therapy and the right meds, I don't think I would have made it. If I can do it, so can you!
You're going to be OK. This will sound lame, I know, but try to relax and know that you're going to one of the best hospitals and you will get the help, the hope and the answers you need.
And we are always here................
I wish you the very best
Peace
Greenlydia