Thanks you both so much for responding and for your comforting words. I am feeling better now but sometimes I just feel so frustrated. It's like every day is a struggle sometimes. I am really trying to stay away from meds. I try to calm myself in other ways; ta'i chi, tea, meditation, exercise. I have been on paxil before and hated it. The withdrawals were terrible too. I am currently working to find a regular therapist.
What you are feeling is not uncommon. Many people experience HIV related anxiety. Its scary I know. However, you are not alone. Eventually you will control the anxiety and keep it under control. Have patience, things will get better. There are many poeple here willing to offer you advice from their personal experiences.
Hi Chance13, I've had times like that before. Last year at the peak of my anxiety, I was terrified that I had cancer, along with a list of other health conditions, I know the feeling of losing reality as you describe, and also know that telling you to calm down will do nothing, I suggest seeing a doctor, if you find no matter what you do, you're always in a state of panic, and worry for more than a few months (I say a few months because I've seen people have short term panic attacks and anxiety for only a few months) than seeing a doc, could really help, whether he give you medication, or wants you to see a councilor. If you want to talk, feel free to PM me, or E-mail me at Colin_Rockss***@****.