My first appointment with a new psychiatrist is in a few hours. I have PTSD>anxiety>GAD>SAD>insomnia, diagnosed multiple times. I will be 59 years old 10/25/16, and I cannot do it alone anymore. It is too much. My worst years, PTSD speaking, were from 1969-1977, when my father's quite real threats to shot me and my Mom, and say we attacked him (he was a Newark NJ cop) and his alcoholic outbursts directed at me age 10, and my Mom, were at their worst. We finally got out in 73, with the clothes on our backs. I still cry when I think about how I left my German Shepherd with that *******. After highschool, 11/77, I found out I had severely metastized testicular, which 2 surgeries and 2 horrible years of very harsh chemo did the trick. But to what purpose? So I can be hyper-vigilant, have a stiff, tense neck, clenched jaw, headaches,as well as insomnia? Again I ask, for what was all that suffering? Hopefully this Dr. will give me a very well thought out, logical (my IQ is pretty high, bs will not be tolerated). My intention is to be as open and honest as I have ever been with a doc. I even wrote a 3 page (summarizing the worst 10 years). My oncologist told me that studies showed that patients who had gone through my cancer regime had the same PTSD profile as Vietnam POWs. Lot of fun there! I will let you know how it goes.