I'm not sure if this is the right forum, because I do not have an actual mental health diagnosis from a doctor, but such is life. I am a 17 year old female, and am healthy overall. However, for as long as I can remember I've been a worry-wart. At younger ages I would worry about small things like why my parents weren't proud of me, and I cried an average amount for a child. There was no problem with this, and I felt relatively normal. Lately, this worrying has gotten slightly more intense. I am constantly scared that everyone is judging me and talking behind my back. It feels as if everything I do - my actions, thoughts, words, and the way I carry myself - is the wrong decision. Often I am out of breath, nauseous, and sometimes get light-headed. Sometimes I have anxiety attacks in which I can't breathe, dry heave, and cry. Also, I sometimes self-harm when I believe I deserve punishment for a stupid thing I did. I do not scratch myself as much anymore, though, for fear of being found out. The other night I genuinely wanted to die for a second, but quickly shut that down. I built up the courage to tell my boyfriend about these problems, but told him to forget about it because he told me he was going to tell his mom. No one else knows about these issues. I do not want to get "professional help" or take medicine because other people will call me a drama queen or think I am a stereotypical stupid teenage girl. I was just wondering if there was anything I could do, because I have been feeling hopelessly stupid lately, and I just want to be normal.