Scared due to HIV...

[Max_48084]

Hello,
          Last few days I am experiencing extreme stress and anxiety due sexual exposure I had 3 weeks ago. Now, reading through tons of threads, websites, blogs my mind is completely confused. I went for bachelor party with friends in vegas on 30 th OCt. me with couple of my friends went to massage parlor where I received full body massage, a handjob, a french kissing and licking from massuse. Now, I posted my experience in HIV prevention and STD blogs where I received response that I had no risk which I was aware of. But the symptoms I saw gave me less confidence what people told me or what I read online. Kissing poses a rare risk in certain situations like bleeding gum which I had due brand new brush. I brushed 2-3 hours ago before my exposure but I don't remember that if I had bleeding gum at that time. Now below is the timeline for my symptoms and results for my tests.
1. Day 0- had lot of drinks and a pack of smokes overnight usually I get bad throat after smoking that much
Day 3 - mild sore throat:
2. Day 7 - got worse Sore throat possibly due drinking and smoking
3. Day 8-14 improved considerably
4. Day 17 - sore throat went bad with swollen lymphs in the throat and neck  visited urgent care. I told about my exposure. Doc said no risk asked me to get tested for all the bacterial and viral infection including STDs
5. Day 20- sore throat went bad with sneezing, running nose bad headache slight fever-had pretty bad exposure cold air and spicy air in home for making food at home took azithromycin and applied vicks balm
6. Day 21 - runny nose is gone but stuffed sinuses headache feeling fatigued sometime sore throat slightly better
I got my results on this day. I was slightly relieved that all the std results came negative including HIV (antigen p24 antibody testing) but again got disturbed due other results also came negative like normal seasonal viral and bacterial infection. I came positive for HSV 1 which I might have got it during my exposure or might have have got it in past or in childhood. Guilt is killing me. I have never such kind of stuff not even on my bachelor party. But this time I tried and feeling super guilty about it. I couldn't take that anymore and I shared my experience and concern to my wife. She showed me a support and understood the thing. After that things have improved but HIV thought is again going into my head.
7. Day 22- visited primary care. He also told no need for anymore testing but my mind is ready to accept it what if I am the unlucky one. He checked me for ear, nose and throat infection which he found normal. Right side ear is completely waxed. I used few drops that night which helped to bring down ear ache.
8. Day 23 - gave blood sample for HIV RNA testing and blood sugar level check up.
9. Day 24 - results came normal for sugar level and cholesterol. HiV is still pending and will get results after thanksgiving holiday.

I still have dry and itchy throat, no stuffy nose but sinus congestion and headache very now and then. Some light cramps in lower abdomen and groin area but nothing alarming. Slight pain behind ears and considerable neck pain.

Now, question is, are my symptoms the result of anxiety or cold or HIV or all of the above? Please help.

[Max_48084]

Thanks a lot people for support and comments. My HIV RNA quantitative test came out negative. Test was done on 23rd day after the exposure ( massage, hand job and french kissing). I received result on Monday 30th Nov. I felt so relieved. Now today is 34 days after the exposure. Only test I didnt do is syphillis. Currently I still have dry and itchy throat, neck tenderness, sometimes feeling like vertigo and mild diarrhoea. I started my antibiotics dose on last monday as soon as my HIV results came negative. Now I am worried about syphillis. I will get myself checked after 6 weeks to put all STD and HiV doubts to rest.

[whitwhit93]

You're not alone. I have health hypochondria and although I got tested and everything was negative I still get the "what if" thoughts and anxiety .

[ainmak]

In short, you will never get HIV regarding to your previous case. Feel free and don't think too much

[Max_48084]

Thanks a lot for comment. I am OK now but sometimes my takes over me. I am feeling as I shared it with wife. I am very lucky that I have perfect understanding partner. We are in relationship for past 10 years. The is guilt is killing why I have to do a thing which will put everything at stake. :(.

[zdzdzd3]

You are not alone my friend..I too have been suffering anxiety Due to the fear that I might have HIV. I received an unprotected fellatio and fingered a girl..

[michigan07]

As others have said it is 99.9999% likely you do not have HIV. What you do have is a lot of anxiety and probably a cold. Anxiety can make you feel like crap too. Try not to worry and if you continue to have trouble you might want to see a therapist.