Scared im crazy

[dagfshbsf]

I've been having this problem for a while where i feel like im crazy and im scared more then anything that people think im crazy, which makes me anxious so i act weird. I have become reall socially anxious, i was never like this before i use to be really popular but since i got a boyfriend and its been serious, i havent got as many friends and im constantly anxious talking to people wondering what there thinking and if they think im weird, its gotten to the point were im so depressed and upset because i wish i wasnt like this, it runs through my mind constantly, im watching my every action, beating myself up about my past and things i say wrong or do wrong, i cant seem to get over this and not care what people think, because i really do. Is this OCD or have a got issues with my self esteem or am i actually crazy, this mainly also started because of my brother, his an alcoholic and when he drinks alot he acts literally crazy, and now i guess im scared i will end up like that. Please someone help me, or give me strategies on how to cope with this, or maybe even a idea on what you think it may be. Thanks.

[michigan07]

You are definetly not crazy : ) the fact that you are aware of what is going on in your life is proof of that. I think  it might be a good idea to talk to a therapist and work on some strategies to help with your anxiety. I wouldn't worry about people talking about you at all. We all are different and at the end of the day others do not have to live our life. Try to do things to relax such as by doing activities you enjoy and perhaps work out as well as that helps. Keep your mind active and that can help a lot..

[Fosse100]

Hi there! I'm afraid I can't offer you any help but I can at least offer you relief that you are not the only person out there who feels like this, I have EXACTLY the same thing! I'm constantly anxious about things and when I'm talking to people I feel as if they think I'm weird or they're looking straight through me somehow. I also worry about everything I do and what I do wrong/say wrong etc. I honestly don't think you're crazy, its just anxiety and over thinking. I know it's hard but try and relax into social situations and try not worry about everything you do. Trust me,  people won't think you are weird at all! They'll probably think quite the opposite. I always have people telling me how confident and relaxed I am when inside I'm a can of worms. Let me know how you get on.