So sick of the anxiety already...

[confused317]

Sorry to vent but after 12 years of this I am just tired.  I am tired of

feeling not normal
feeling lightheaded or like I am on a boat
the sinking feeling in my chest
the fear of passing out
the racing heart
not being able to have a conversation with a stranger
racing thoughts

and I will stop there.  I did so well for awhile but now back down in the dumps and I forgot how hard it is to get out.  The symptoms scare me to death.  I always feel like it it something worse than anxiety..

I want to be normal again.

Again thanks for letting me vent.  Its just so depressing and overwhelming at this time.  I will pray for every one of you because I know how you feel.  

[confused317]

Thank you.. I did counseling years back that helped and I really pulled myself out.  I know I can do it again.  It is just so exhausting.  Im glad there are so many great people on here who understand.  Thanks for letting me vent:)

[loveymom3]

You need to vent! We are all here for that reason, to listen and support one another. Who better to vent to then those who truely understand what you are going through. Our loved ones can only support us so much and then it is, "snap out of it." I am so sorry that you have felt so poorly for the past 12 years. I can't imagine how tired you must feel; I have only had panic attacks for the past 6 months and I am beside myself. You have to think back to a time when your panic/anxiety was at its lowest and remember that you can get back to that point. Have you tried counseling? I myself went for about 3 months and I think it was making it worse. But then again, I think therapy was dredging up my parents divorce and that brought the panic on. I never dealt with it since I was a child and it was a BAD divorce. It is funny how past events can come back up years and years later when you never even knew they bothered you in the first place? See...now I'm venting...sorry. I know what you mean...when you say "I think it is something worse than anxiety." I just want my docotor to find something wrong that she can fix since that would make me feel better knowing it is not all in my head since only I can fix that, HOW? I, as you, just want to feel normal again. I was prescibed ativan but get anxiety about taking it, I'm afraid I will die from it or lose control. Well, I hope you feel better and soon!!!!