Okay, so details first: I'm a 23 year old female who has had diagnosed anxiety for about two years, to the point I finally had to drop out of college because I could no longer function only 9 hours away from getting my degree. About a month ago, my psychiatrist suggested I switch to .5mg Xanax XR twice daily from .5 Clonazepam three times a day. The understanding of this switch would be that on the Xanax XR, I would also take another two pills of regular xanax - one in between my two doses and one right before I slept. Xanax XR basically did nothing to curb my anxiety on the whole and people could even tell a very noticeable decline this last month. Finally, this last friday, I got good poisoning (figures I don't go out to eat alot because my anxiety is slowly morphing into agoraphobia and then I get food poisoning one of the times I do, right?). The anxiety was absolutely impossible to tolerate all weekend because of the fear of getting more sick,and today, I finally reached the breaking point of calling the psychiatrist and requesting that I return back to Clonezpam because, while I am not and have never been cured of my anxiety, I could at least go between doses without panic attacks on most days.
By without panic attacks, I mean that I almost always have this underlying sense of tension and anxiety - a sort of butterflies in my stomach - but not complete breakdowns except on particular occasions. This was not the case in the last month, where a breakdown has been an almost daily occurence. So, right now, I'm back to .5mg of Clonazepam three times a day (when I get up, sometime in the middle, and when I go to sleep). I also have the .5mg tablets of Xanax for 'as needed', and I take 12 100mg gabapentin tablets a day (3 tablets in the morning, 3 tablets in the middle dose, 6 at night).
Because it was a phone call (and the longer I take, the more I get charged), and because my mind is not in the best state right now as it is, it didn't occur to me later to ask several questions. So I thought I'd try here and see if anyone could help me since I don't have insurance and calling again will be difficult financially.
Firstly, I HAVE quit Xanax before back when I had a psychiatrist who had me take a pill each day, but that was only .5mg each day and while I felt some withdrawal, it wasn't horrible and my current psychiatrist wanted me to quit. I was on the clonezepam at the time too. When I quit the clonazepam a month ago, I did have some withdrawal as well, but it was something I could handle with the increased Xanax dosings. I have heard that Xanax is the much more vicious one in terms of withdrawal - should I be prepared to go through some really rough times, or will being on clonazepam again largely take care of the brunt?
Secondly, since I am allowed by my psychiatrist to take regular xanax on an as needed basis, should I try to taper down a bit just so that potential withdrawal is not so difficult?
Thirdly, I was on clonazepam for so long I forgot what it feels like for my body to 'get used' to it again. Since I'm on Xanax right now, am I still going to have to adapt to clonezapam again or will it be a fairly seamless process?
Thanks very much to anyone who has the time to answer!